Sitting on the fine sand by the sea,
the stars have all gone out
and, my senses solicit me not to shout
my mind is restrained and I can’t see.
I’m blinded by the darkness in my heart
I have duties yet to complete;
wonders and loveliness left to contemplate
help me I’m falling apart.
The morning has arrived
I still lay there,closed out from what’s happening
I am not perturbed by the prepossessing
is it an end that I never derived.
No I’m not dead I cannot end
I make a struggle to open my eyes
every attempt fails still my mind lies
all I have now is a past and a future to shed.
I can still perceive everything
it’s just that I can’t have the key to the future
I am being drawn back by mother nature
the wind whispers that it’s nothing.
The sun tells me that it’s my last day
rays dance on my corpse
All my past flickers before me
I sit by the dead me,all my wishes at bay.
I didn’t have the right to reproach myself
because destiny was not my decision
instead I hummed a song with great precision
wondering why i failed in being myself.
A man with an amiable countenance
summoned to me he searched me for life
I stared deep into his eyes it reflected strife
his face bereft of happiness.
He patted my rosy cheeks
when he lost hope he searched my pockets
those pits of memories and love lockets
he found my wallet and his mind leaks.
How true is that men are ruled by vanity
that man looked around and dissappeared
as fast as he had appeared
I’m afraid there’s none to preserve my sanity.
Where is heaven?
I wished if I could go back
is there a way,I don’t know how to track
how can I live the ghost life I’m given .
I slipped into a sleep
my soul can’t repent nor repair
I swindle and tumble with the air
I am travelling to a memory’s heap.
I wake up in a fluffy bed
my legs and arms shorter
I’m buried under thoughts more happier
I’m alive and I’m not devil’s bread.
I hear voices outside the bedroom
steps fast approaching
my happiness killed by thought suppressing
haven’t death had enough of my fumes?
My new childish mind spoke
the voices were my fears
it sounded as if it’s saying prayers
‘Time machine’,the voice broke.
Yes a time-machine,it unveiled all the mystery
I am co-existing in two different times
how absurd?it doesn’t even seem to chime
but I cannot seal it as mockery.
The little me was just a heap of experiences
it must have been a bad dream
I was taught to stay on that beam
but the time machine never halted the transitions.
I finally believed that it’s my fate
and i had to stay until i could say
the machine couldn’t have mistaken
but i realized the fact until it was too late.
Years passed and my childish self grew,
one day I ended up being on the same beach ,
I realized what the machine tried to teach;
I tried to run but it was too late to be true.
Fate can’t be changed.
I died mysteriously as I had transitioned back.
Is it my second death or will I travel back?
I do not know ,it can’t be explained.