I feel like I could sit and stare at nothing
Forever

I’m so desperate it’s disgusting

Everyone keeps acting like it’s not a big deal
Like I’m just having a bad day
They don’t realize the thing in my head isn’t like a monster under my bed
It’s a relentless killer

I used to search for you
Used to think about
how we will love and hug

But lately
The idea of you
is fading
And I am more than present

I used to look for you in the mall
And search for you in the dining hall
Used to see you in the park
And a glimpse of your back in the crowd

But lately
I stopped
Because you are right here
I feel you right here
The love of our life
is right here

All I ever wanted
All I ever needed
All I ever searched
All I ever sought

When I look down the street
or open the window
or sing in the forest
or swim in the lake

I see you
right here
I feel you
right here

The bliss
of loving you
is right here
There is nothing
more to need or want
But living here now
with you