I write my own poetry
That’s one thing you don’t know about me

Helps me to express myself
To balance out my emotional health

To get out the things affecting me
Sometimes the feelings I won’t let you see

Those feelings deep within my soul
Ones deep beyond any control

I’m my own counsellor you see
Nobody else can help me but me

Pen to paper I start to express
Working towards my own happiness

Everyone needs their release
Balance themselves and find their peace

Focusing on my goals and growth
2018 I made some oaths

To develop my self and push the lines
Leave the fear and blockers behind

To build my relations with my father
To try can achieve the happy ever after

To push my career take the next step
Too push myself to new depths

To take a plunge and make the leap
For I am strong I am not weak

Conquer my demons focusing head on
I’ll be a winner and and will say I have won

Here is to me and myself
Here is to success and emotional wealth

My Daddy never put me first
It messed me up was just the worst

My Boyfriend put me 2nd best
It broke my heart I was just a mess

A host of heartache and pain
Let this **** happen again and again.

I made mistakes and didn’t put myself first
No return on emotional investment is just the worst

2017 you **** ***
2018 is approaching fast

This time though it’s all about me 
Both in tact, my heart and integrity 

The only person number 1 is me
Before you approach me you must agree

The emotional investment I make in you
Is reciprocated, I will never be made to feel blue

For now I’m good by myself 
Investing in me and my personal wealth

2018 is sure to be my year
My heart will sing and not shed a tear.

Oh my gosh you drive me insane
How can I allow you to cause this pain

I wasn’t meant to get in your bed
You weren’t supposed to get in my head

This was not what I projected
to feel hurt and fully rejected

Let’s just be friends you said
Then your stupid actions mess with my head

I just need me to be strong
Just do me and carry on

To get you out of my heart and head
To think of positives instead

You will only break my heart
I will only go back to the start

When you look for love in all the wrong faces
It just leads you to end up in dark places

If you let someone control how you feel
How the hell are you meant to heal

Take some time out on concentrate on yourself
I keep telling you work on your emotional wealth

You need time to learn to love you
And feel positive about what you say and do

To look in the mirror and the reflection
And recognise your perfect imperfections

I’m beautiful kind funny and smart
If only I could mean it straight from my heart

Confidence and self esteem I lack
Which means the decisions I make are wack

I punish myself through my actions
Which means negativity then gains traction

Changing actions gets results
Will bring this negativity to a halt

It’s strength and focus that I need
In order for me to positively succeed

2017 is Now at the end
Hopefully heartbreak will be on the mend

Hopefully then I can work on myself
Building up my emotional wealth

Forget what I can’t change and focus on what I can.
Positivity and light will then go hand in hand

2018 I’m coming for you  
By the end the words I speak will be from the heart and true

I find myself full of unrest
A heavy heart upon my chest

Trying to find a brand new path
And repair myself from the last

As I try to focus myself
To build upon my spiritual wealth

A little voice inside of me
Shouting, is this how it has to be

Wrestling with all my might
To make the decision that is right

To reward myself with happiness
And remove myself from all this stress.

I must dig deep within my soul
Accept the new and leave the old.

Putting myself as number 1
Means that the best is yet to come