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Spacecadet Dec 2019
Beneath my skin lies an ocean
into which you swim.
Moonlight shadows
beams of light.
These are my joys and my mothers dreams and tears.
For as I gently soothe your troubled skin
So to ships do I sink
 
Mother and lover, daughter, obedient wife
my wet within me gives and holds life.
We nurture, we love, we strive to do right
But the pain of our ocean beats a heavy drum
Upon our hearts, our thighs.
 
History repeats itself.
Its not simple to relearn.
The bird can only sing its mother father song.
Instinctively we gather, that which we know.
Planets form and then they grow.  
My father didn’t see his mother smile
and I wish I would mine.
  
Wrecks of old ships lie dormant quietly in my bed
When sailors were lost or found.
But amongst the ruins there will one day be life
a new world of corals and forest within which my children will swim
Quietly sitting buried in time 
today will be history and tomorrow we will be loved, safely
for our feminine again.
 
My water, it may sink.
It distorts the song of my eternally loving soul
it drowns those too timid to swim
it rocks the boats that seek fleeting beauty of the shore
it fights those who contain it, force it to take another shape
but within these tides, these rivers of my love
these dangerous depths of deep and dark blues
lives all of my love
for every one of you. 
Just as tears are born from the eyes of laughter.
My oceans are born from the feelings of my love for you.
 
And I wait. For the brave, gentle, scuba diver
to find the treasures hidden amongst the wasteground of the sunken ships
Spacecadet Dec 2019
overnight my beloved became a stranger to me
Another man took him away
disappointed me with his empty eyes
horrifying me with his brutal silence
his soft and tender heart replaced by a stone wall
That shuts me out
And trapped away from us all the beautiful and enchanted memories we created together
This new man doesn’t feel anymore
Stonelike embodiment of fearful thoughts
That cast out the great mysteries of love
It seems he doesn’t remember me either
And so then my beloved
To whom I shared so much of myself with
Never wrote words and smiled upon my heart
I am wrapped up with grief
Spacecadet Dec 2019
You,
my beloved one,
soak up all my attentions
My helpful suggestions
You love that I love you
That I pray for sunshine above you
My protection
My affection
My spontaneous seduction
My listening
My kissing
A loyal companion.
But where, sweet beloved,
are you
When I need you
Your strength
Your reassurance
Your fearless steadfastness
Those nights in life
When I feel my aloneness
When fear quakes my faith
And my feelings choke me
When our words, our responses
Hurt me, unnerve me
Won’t you be there then to support me?
We both need each other
And If we are to create safety
We have to be there for each other, equally.
But instead I write poems and I ask
Where love are you now
My one and only
Spacecadet Dec 2019
He’s not here anymore
That’s why you’ve been crying girlie
Cos his face is smiling but his heart ain’t offering
It’s magic to you no more
Go rock your nest alone tonight
Let the moon song your grief
Wrap up tight your body untouched
Sleep will wash that longing feminine soul beneath
Maybe he’ll be back with soft animal skins
That will warm the bed you’ll sleep upon
Or maybe he is gone with the wind having inhaled you then left you forgotten.
for now breathe deep, give your prayers to the moon, for your love isn’t here for your sharing.
May his heart be honourable and his soul be true. May these nights not destroy your mutual caring

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