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709 · Mar 2018
Identity
SoRin Mar 2018
I walk this world alone
Burning bridges everywhere I turn
I don't know a life
Without destruction
I'm so toxic
It makes me sick
Still nobody knows

Nobody knows
The life I lead
They never know
Each time I bleed
Or when I want to give up everything
It's nauseating
It's never ending
I want to be open
But I'm afraid to let them in
Because I know they'll just walk away
They'll never treat me the same
It's a constant flow

Still, my heart, it beats for you
My very life, you can have it too
What reason do I have, but the reasons you give
When I think I've had enough
And it all is just too much
I think that today is the day that I'll give it all up
Because my life is meaningless in the absence of happiness
And words are cheap, and better left unspoken
Every life was meant to fade
And every heart was made to be broken
So what's it matter if I die?
If they learn my secrets, I'll be ostracized by the ones I love the most
To them, I'll be a ghost
So let these chains set me free
Let me be who I am meant to be
A free spirit with no care
A lovely person with no burdens left to bare
320 · Aug 2018
Separation
SoRin Aug 2018
You were once my dear friend
But never again
I feel so used
Violated
The victim of your lies
Your rumors

I am no fool
And I refuse to be walked on
You say I have medical problems
Just to get attention
Because I'm just jealous
That you have similar issues
But people actually show up at your hospital bed
While I lie there alone
I've NEVER been the jealous type
Nor am I a fake

You've known me sense we were children
I thought you'd understand me better by now
I wouldn't lose my job over illness
If I had a choice
Because no one will pay my bills for me the way they do for you
I've been on my own sense I was 17
And your mom still does everything for you
I wish a single person would even look in my direction, let alone show they care

I never asked for this
And I dont get attention and it's fine with me
I'm just tired of how you mock and de-humanize me
I'd much rather fight instead of roll over and die
That seems to be the difference between you and I
261 · Aug 2018
SoRin Lies
SoRin Aug 2018
Little girl, little girl
So small and pure
Hear my song and bury it near your heart
Pick up your chin and smile
Just to mask your pain
You are different, my child
And so, life for you will never be easy

Little girl, little girl
They say it gets better in time
They're just lies, it's all lies
Burdens grow heavier each time
But you should smile, all the while
Because it's better if they believe
That you're alright

Little girl, little girl
So damaged by this world
No one's ever loved you the way you've loved them
So your smile bears a tear
You will cry, yet no one hears
As you fall into depression

Little girl, little girl
You've learned that lying spares your pain. For the things that no one knows will sooner be washed away.
Just like the ones who have once loved you, they will all just fade away.

Little girl, little girl
Why do you always feel afraid?
The love you had for others, became a numb void within your chest. Perhaps, if you became like them, it would be for the best.

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