Crystal

Crystal Oct 2017

Insane.

I woke up at 3 Am again.
What a nightmare.
Losing you wasn't a dream. It was a reality that has yet to hit me.
I know once it does I will go insane.
Or maybe I already have.
I no longer know the difference between a nightmare and reality because when you left it felt so unreal.
I can't wait to wake the hell up and let you go.

You are no good.

#him #love #sadlovestory #gone #3am #us #broken #lost

Crystal Oct 2017

slow.

I don't know what it was about you that got me so addicted.
Love, the worst kind of drug.
To crave you at 3 Am.
Like an addict.
You are the thing that is slowly killing me.
Funny how the number one reason I want to give up is also the number one reason why I have't.
It was never anything you said or did.
It was the feeling that had came along with you.
Now your gone and I have never been so lost in my life.
This withdraw will be the death of me. Slowly.
Why did you leave me here all alone.
Why did I think someone like you would stay with someone like me.
You said you needed me.
I needed you way more than you needed me and you left just because of that.
I hate that I still crave you. Your lips on mine. The thought of that drives me insane. Then reality hits as I see your lips on hers.
I think I officially hate you more than you hate yourself.
I have no room in my heart for hate . So I pray everything on your side is okay. If it isn't I hope you remember me and cry, just as I do with you.
End my suffering. Don't make my death slow. Just pull the trigger I'm sick I'm playing Russian roulette
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This word is full of ugly people.

#sad #him #her #us #love

Crystal Oct 2017

When.

"It get's better" they keep telling me.
WHEN ?
When the hell will it get better?
Some days I think it is better. I think that the thought of him isn't so harmful.
But some days I just wanna lay down in bed and cry about everything.
I never want to feel this pain again in my life.
When will the thought of him not want to make me throw up.
I hate him.
When will he come back?
When will he make me happy again...
I hate him.
everything about him and what he has done to me.
I hate everything.

#sad #him

Crystal Oct 2017

give up.

I gave up on myself
I stopped loving and caring.
I stopped living.
All because you left.
I wish you never left.
I want you to come back and kiss my wounds.
It's sad because you are the reason they are here.
They wont leave. THE THOUGHT OF YOU WONT LEAVE.
Please go away
Please make it stop hurting so dam much....

Crystal Oct 2017

Forgot.

I stopped eating.
I didn't mean too....
I just forgot.
I forgot I excited.

I forgot how too live.
Sadly. I did not forget you. How could I ever forget the one thing that gave me a reason to thrive.
How did you do it so simple? Just vanish into thin air.
Teach me how you forgot about us please.

Crystal Oct 2017

spell.

It was like you loved seeing me in so much pain.
Like he had opened me up, took my lungs by taking my breath away.
It felt nice at first..... till it didn't.
Then you took my heart, or I gave it to you.
In hopes you would heal it, only to have you crush it.
Laughing at my pain, I saw the real you.
Why didn't I see it the first time you smiled?
I used to find comfort in that pretty smile of yours.
Now, I see where the devil lives. He is inside of you.
They warned me not to. But I couldn't help myself.
Your lips felt like home. Your touch made me no longer feel as if I was all alone. Your voice had me under some kind of spell.
I can't believe I didn't notice that you were slowly dragging me into hell.

I don't like this feeling anymore.

#sad #gone #hell #saveme