Crystal

Crystal Oct 2017

U.

I was weak.
But you knew that.
I was hoping you would take care of how vulnerable I was.
I guess I shouldn't have because instead all you did was take advantage.
Took all my love and left me.
I scream your name everyday.
I am still weak. But only when it comes to you.

One day everything will change.

hate you.

Crystal Oct 2017

Please.

I pick up yet another drink.
To drown another memory of you.
But as soon as I do , another one seems to swim right back up.
So here I am, 5 bottles down.

Trying to forget you will be the death of me. Trying to let go felt like the end of me.
Who am I without you?
What have you done to me?Please undo it. Let me live without you.
Or let me die with out you.
Help me let you go pretty boy.... help....

-I wish I didn't miss you this much.

Why wont he love me like he loves her

#sad #saveme #please #bye #her

Crystal Sep 2017

I knew better

I knew better than to fall for you.
Yet here I am, at 1 AM.
Thinking about you, while you're thinking about her.
I knew you would hurt me.
I knew you would leave.
I knew you didn't plan on staying.
I knew a lot better than to love and care about you.
I always knew, we would be great together.
That the world would no longer be a place to hate, but a place I wanted to explore and enjoy with you.
I was perfectly fine before you showed up. Depressed and lonely, just how I liked to be.
I knew you would build me all the way up, make me feel like I was walking on air, only to push me down, and make me want nothing more than to be six feet under ground. Away from you and the rest of the ugly hearts in this cruel world.
I knew you would go back to her.
I knew she would make you fall all over again.
You said you wouldn't . Yet here you are, on my mind and I am once again writing endlessly about you.
I knew it would hurt.
I wish I knew enough, to not have done any of it.
I knew better.

she will be the end of you. As you were for me.

#him #love #sad #hurt #iknew #her #broken #saveme

Crystal Sep 2017

Can't

I can't leave him because he's already been gone.
Truth is, I don't even think he was ever really there.
The saddest part of this, I actually thought he was.
I fixed his broken heart, by giving him mine, and all he did was go back to the girl that had broken his, and now he is giving her my heart, only so she could destroy it all over again.
I no longer see the good in him, and that's how it always should have been.
I can't wait till I get over him. It's going to be great, he will try to come back and I have to be strong and say " I can't take you back."

I can't be sad anymore.
I can't think of him anymore.
I can't let him be the complete end of me.
I can't let him go.
I can't stop loving him.
I can't stop thinking about him.
I can't keep doing this.
I can't stay strong.
I can't act like I'm fine.
I can't be happy all the time.
I can't be sad all the time.
I can't let the thought of him be the end of happy me.
I can't.....

love *****.

#broken #savemefromhim #fixme

Crystal Sep 2017

You.

Physically I was attracted to you.
But now Mentally I'm attached to you.

I hate you.

#pleasemakeitgoaway

Crystal Sep 2017

Sad.

You used to be the reason I smiled.
Now you're the reason I'm suicidal.