I'm pretty scared looking down into the abyss,
Not knowing what to expect from its vastness,
It's hard to explain my paranoia,
And hard to understand my timidness,
But I have overcome other fears,
And I will conquer this one too,
If  not today,
Then tomorrow,
If not tomorrow,
Then one day,
I will come back and look straight into the abyss.

Never did I imagine growing up,
And never in such a strange way,
I remember everyone I grew up with,
They remind me of a simpler state,
However they probably grew up too,
In their own possibly strange way,
And maybe in their hearts,
They hum,
And wonder about,
How life goes on!

I've been trying to change,
And it makes me cringe,
I have a vision that isn't too insane,
I see two paths,
Separated by the choices I make,
Begging me to make the right choices for my futures sake,
It's warning me that a lot is at stake,
Calling me to wake up,
From the slumber,
I've stumbled in.

I'm sitting here,
Looking at the fan spin,
Noting the time tick,
And all I remember,
Is the moments that ran by,
And how they left their mark,
On a memory,
Whose eyes are already feeling tired,
Yet the brain connected,
Knows there is much to see,
Much to learn and much to do,
Before the eyes flicker out,
And the soul departs.

You're all over the place,
Yet there isn't enough for everyone,
I'm not saying saying this because I'm hurt,
I'm just saying this because of what I see,
It isn't your fault,
But it's all these fools you're surrounded by,
Who go around accepting the love they think deserve.
When they should be accepting the love they already have.

I am a poet in my heart,
A philosopher in my head,
So I spin these words around,
Sometimes not knowing what they're about,
I know that comes of as a bit shallow and hollow,
But Look in between the words,
They contain a shard,
An ink of me,
Telling you why I write,
In spite,
Of it seeming pointless at times.

There are several ways to earn that loonie,
Or even that toonie,
Just got to look for the right opportunity,
And it is never easy,
But that is the harsh reality.

I know that sounds heavy,
But keep listening to me.

I have a drive that pulsates within me,
And it wants to set a vibe around me,
You see,
I want to make the life,
So I can spend it with a wife,
And buy her the right ring,
And pay my parents back their earnings,
So keep watching me,
Because I am going to make sure,
That barrier will shatter,
Into forgotten matter.