It seems as if she's broken
All the things that happened unspoken
It seems as if she cares
But all she gets are stares
It seems as if she's died
Eyes so red from all the times she's cried
It seems as if she gave up
Living in a world so messed up
But all these thoughts left untouched
Until it was too late to do much
The numb body found on the floor
You swore you didn't know before
And even if she nailed herself to the cross
All you would say is "sorry for your loss"
●a letter from the numb girl●

I have this brain
With which I sometimes think

A set of eyes
Stuck in sockets to see

Two healthy lungs
That know the key is to breath

To keep my heart pumping
In its perpetual beat

A mouth that too often
Doesn't think when it speaks

A stomach that growls
When it's time too feed

Not too picky
When it comes to its choice of eats

Other body parts involved
In the space between

Some working fine
Others struggling to reach

All miraculously entwined  
From my head to feet

These are just a few parts I've got
That make up part of me

i have
locked myself
into a cocoon.
a shell, a
crescent moon.
wind
is battering
against the
walls, shelling
seeds into husks.
the day feels
long and this
song will
have to wait
until the sun
comes. till it
enters the
cracks
in wood
and skin and
allows me
to imagine
again how it feels
to be human.

You think you can love me?
I guarantee you're wrong.
None could ever be
That inherently strong.

I have no social graces.
I dare not try feeling.
I remember no faces
Because I'm uncaring.

I will never matter,
So please, don't try.
The world would be better
If I would just die.

I'm not worth your time.
Don't spare me a thought.
I'm not worth a dime.
I should be forgot.

Perhaps the reason I hate myself so much,
                        
                                                                 is not because I am a horrible person..

                        but because I have given my love to everyone else

                                                                                                                     and left none for myself..

Any insult you could throw my way
Is true.

I'm worthless in every single day
Who knew?

When I'm near children I shy away
Not coo.

And when I'm angry, terrible things I say
You'll rue.

I **** sunshine's shining rays
With blue.

About people, every waking moment pray
They'll shoo.

And every sin which others lay
I do.

So every insult thrown my way
Is undeniably true.