Take a peek inside his poems
if you really want to know him.
He hides himself deep, immersed
a tiny piece in every verse.

Take a peek and take your time
savour the moment of every line.
Relish the thought of what lies there
and appreciate his soul laid bare.

© Pagan Paul (31/08/16)

As sunlight steals
the night sky
Chasing the moon from its perch
So to does it chase away the
Braveness and boldness
Of a night filled with amber liquid
And the shedding of rules and fears.
Under the moons watch
we became two people
Uninhibited for a moment in time
Daring and bold
Drinking in one of life’s simple pleasures
A kiss
An asking and a telling in that moment
Then as the stars carried our secret into another’s night sky
We were left with the clarity and certainty the sun brings
Reminding us...
Shore up defenses
Remember the rules
For to let guards down
Leaves room for questions
A home for guilt
An exposing of longings
Yet morning to midnight
Both have a story
Written and waiting to be wrote
A reminder light does not exist without darkness
And clarity is to know
There is nothing known
And maybe love lives somewhere in between.

He says, “Do you want to come home with me?”
I say, “No”
I think, “Yes”
My heart tells me, “You don’t want his body without his soul. And he is not ready to share both.”

It’s back.

The familiar ache radiating through my chest.
It steals my breath.
It hurts my stomach.
It makes my eyes leak.
I try to hold it.
Love it.
Accept it.
Understand it.
Connect with it.

Yet nothing seems to comfort it.

It’s a searching. An existential longing. A yearning.

It fills and is left unfilled.

Have I chosen it?
Or has it chosen me?

Loneliness

Is it to be released?
Or asked to release me?