your sickness
is my disease

your sickness
is the same as mine

your sickness
is hurting others

and only thinking of yourself

you don't see

that

your

self-hatred

causes you to hurt me

your hate of self
is the disease that plagues humanity
if I don't stop hating myself
I will continue to hurt you
who wants to go first

the deeper the pain
the greater the healing

just like every night
turns to day
every problem and pain
has a solution
(even if it's only accepting there is no solution)

a new dawn
through every dark spot
each miserable moment
the sun will still rise
the cycle will still flow

without the bad
we couldn't appreciate the good
to understand the good
is to have known the bad

some of the gifts
my pain
my ally
has brought me

free will
a free gift
we freely **** up
the choice to
decide
between good and bad
free will
causes all of our misery
in many ways it seems
we we've lost our ability
to be free

setting others free by forgiving them means
setting
yourself
free

resentment is really a form of attachment.
I freely forgive everyone
in the course of a day
should a thought of a grievance
or resentment come up
I bless the offender briefly
and dismiss the thought.

the underlying cause of all my troubles has always been fear.

**** fear
**** resentment.
I need a free heart
without burden
to wander and roam the landscape
laughing

everything under the sun
has a shadow
my brother the hawk
my sister the tree
myself this spirit am I
put into form
on my journey
I walk forward
on my path
to the great infinity
beyond time
the tree is me
I am the tree
we are one
as is everything under the sun

tonight looking at the stars
it occurred to me that
each star represents people who have died and ascended into their heavenly home
they were up there looking down on me
while I looked up at them
my loved ones
who have passed on to the other side
I miss you
thanks for the light though

mindless mindset
keeps reality homogenized
**** on this rose colored glass
sip some delusion

the pains of my broken heart
dancing to my death

this circular path
so well worn
like a caged bear
at the zoo

wish I could say I been
nobody's fool
but it ain't the case

so I'll take another ****
on my smoke
and put it all behind me.