my soul is earthen
my heart is red
I once was dead
am now reborn
on this path
That I have well worn
seeking to escape
from the prison in my mind
my thoughts are  the only
chains that bind

my timeless soul
my
true self
the mystery of nature
the veil
I learn there is nothing new to learn
only higher states of consciousness
I seek
to get back
to my god self
good self
I am
I am
I am
lost as ****.

the soul of Mother Nature
I am a natural born hater
I seek justice and freedom
a life of no illusions
and
no cops to harass me.

To hate or to fear is to be psychologically ill
public office is the last refuge of the incompetent
dreams are rudiments of the great state to come
we dream
what
is
about
to
happen

My future days are my past dreams manifested
standing behind a pane of glass

inhaling the wisdom of sages
has the future come to pass?

time is meaningless now
as all times coincide
and can be entered like a room down the hall

tapping into the universal mind
riding the wave towards an infinite now

never ending, never beginning
all that is and will ever be

at this moment
lies everything
or nothing

seek nothing
then you have
everything

acceptance of the futility
of
fighting
the laws of nature.

where chaos is made
where you get confused
BEWARE
it's a sign of hidden motives
subconsciously, consciously
whatever
anything that causes chaos
is telling you
of a most certain
treachery
tread lightly and carry a big stick.

I am the crow
which rolls walnuts from your roof
I wear the morning star as my crown
I haven't had a proper shower since last month

and I don't care.

diaries from a tweaker living in her Lincoln Towncar.