Her worth to you is far greater than mine
And perhaps her love for you as well
You tell me I'm yours, this is true
But these thoughts weight down on my mind

Names flash across your screen
I wonder who it could be?
Heart pounding with curiosity
Though I dare not take a peek

Blind my eyes and close my ears
Don't think too hard, it'll bring you to tears
Though I've seen those pictures still online
And I hear those whispers that are said so carefully

Almost as if they are afraid,
Of c r u s h i n g my heart

With words of comfort, he tells me silence
"You are wonderful, You are beautiful "
But the voices that scream tell me otherwise, crying out
Y O U  W I L L  N E V E R  B E  E N O U G H

Even if my heart is riddled with fear
Inferiority to the girl who once stood
I'll try my hardest to live up to her
To receive the same love and the same worth



But still.... it hurts


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She said you were malicious
To be weary when I see you
Due to the things that she heard
And the comments you made

She told me that there is hidden
Underlying ill intent
He’ll do anything to get to you
She said be careful when I went

Though I never could see it
Behind my rose tinted glasses
That can’t be it now I imagine
I haven’t worn them since our classes

My heartstrings have been tied
Securely attached to another
I care for you that is true
But for my boy I see no other

And when I see you again
That’s if we ever do
I’ll hug you like old friends
That’s just what we always do

Because in my heart you’re still the same
That strange boy that I once knew
And our past filters nostalgic feelings
Though the people we’ve become are all brand new

To that pedestal boy that I once wrote
Endless poems from my heart
Perhaps I’ll see you again someday
But it’s been better that we’re apart