Are you playing my heart is this just another game?
trying to love you’s got me going insane
Words going round and round in my brain it’s not just exhausting it’s a physical pain
I tell you I love you and you just turn away
You tell me I’m crazy you tell me we’re done this is all to hard you just wanna have some fun
If you wanted fun you should have stuck with a fling I don’t want one night I want the real thing
Ya tell me your scared cuz I’m wondering if we’re meant to be but I take one step back and your ready to let go of me

What a beautiful rush
I can’t get enough
He is my addiction, just one last puff
He sees right through me he calls my bluff


I’m lost in his eyes
Legs wrapped around his thighs
The ecstasy takes hold
Every inch burns with passionate love  uncontrolled
Her lips part as a moan tells of her innocence demise

Unsafe? Unwise? This may be true I surmise
His touch his breath down my neck tantalise
Such an immense pleasure to behold
My body trembles my heart unfolds
His lust like tendrils of fire and I’m entangled in his ties

One ****** deeper and bliss is culminating
Heart racing, heaven illuminating
Satisfaction intoxicating suffocating

Heart broken
wounds open
words left unspoken

head pounding
heart ache hounding
tissues mounding

go NO stay
please come play?
Let me see your insides
lets see where the pain hides
take down your confines

I am a child again craving his approval
watching my hearts removal
all the whilst his face scrunched in reproval

am I ugly on the inside too?

Thoughts racing
pain facing
its okay babe but this may sting

cutting deeper, oh god whats left
you've taken it all my heart, my life, my breath

just a little more princess
dont stress
the way I make you feel in between shall repress

all the times you said goodbye
all the lows but never the highs

ill make you feel new again
dont fight me, its all in vein
I promise this one last cut and no more pain!

I don't know what happens next I've been down this road before there was a pothole I didn't see coming and in i fell head over heels again.
I must walk alone cold tired but fighting to find my own, to be myself but those potholes..

Temptation creeps trying to wrap its warm embrace around me what a ploy daring me to look the other way one misstep and I'll fall again you'll hold me for years and that warmth will rise till it is a smouldering burn smothering me.
In flood the memories I can't breathe a harsh reminder to withstand the cold a step each day I have to make my own way two steps forward one step back and I'm slipping stumbling crying for help and there it is another pothole perfectly foot shaped.
Dare I ever allow myself to fall again.

How many times can a heart harden before it turns to stone.
Just another brick in the wall haha

You where a vision of beauty
a bittersweet thought as I lay next to the soul ******* shell of what was once someone I loved a comfort for my woes a distraction from the truth
Though pretty soft and tender as you are my heart can not, no shall I say will not travel far
its not that I don't care its not that you where never there its just that I'm so unaware...

f only they felt the way I feel
If only they knew fake from real
If only they they stopped wondering what's society's deal
And where can I get my next meal

So fixed on being part of this machine
To make this paper that's green and mean
So they can live some materialistic dream

If only they could see through these eyes
Maybe they could realise
Life's not about some great big prize
The important things are small in size
It's holding the one you love and watching the sunrise
It's all the lows and all the highs
It's a new mum crying happy tears from tired eyes  
And It can't be found in society's lies.