The birds singing outside, the smell of mums cinnamon porridge drifting from the kitchen mixed with the crisp cold morning air
The sun, she kisses my face as I lay in my bed waking from a peaceful slumber I hear the innocent giggles of my siblings playing outside
In this moment life is perfect & I feel total bliss & an unconditional love from the earth & those on it
In this moment life is perfect
A thought from the previous day passes my mind, my father standing over my sister with his belt in hand, he lashes out & she screams I cringe & hide further into the corner he pulls the belt back & strikes again " I told her not to hide ******* in the closet"
Another shriek of pain sounds traveling straight through my core
He leaves & my sister lays there weeping I go to her & hold her close she cries into my chest & pulls in closer
I whisper to her of our future & the leaving this place, I see the light return to her eyes
In this moment thing are perfect
Years later & I am a full grown woman my fiancé & I are expecting our daughter in one day I awake at 3am feeling terrified like a lost child in a shopping mall
I awake my partner & tell him something's wrong he reassures me till I drift off to sleep in his arms
The morning comes with a gloomy feel & I rush into hospital
My mother & I throw jokes whilst waiting for the ultra sound & I feel safe again into the room onto the hard cold steel bed & we begin, I can't look my heart is racing & I look at my mother her face tells me my answer before the doctor slips out one word
The earth falls from beneath me & my dreams & hopes all come undone
After 24hours of excruciating pain I hold her body, limp & life less I wipe the blood from her nose & kiss her forehead before they take her away
My partner holds my hand as we weep for our child he tells me we can make it through this
In this moment life is perfect
A year goes by, she would have been one today my fiancé left for his previous lover & I sought comfort in a gentle caring soul who I am to broken to return love to
I crave to hold my daughter to hear her laugh & watch her blow out her candles
She is gone & I lay here wide awake sobbing into my pillow but it the morning I will sing her her song & the birds will sing & the sun will once again kiss my face as she sends her love down upon me
And in that moment ... Life will be perfect.
It's not about what you don't have, it's about being grateful for what you do have, life is a series of perfect moments you just have to look a bit harder for them sometimes.
No this isn't a poem but I find I'm not having luck finding the words lately...
Like this or not I hope it sends the message I was trying to achieve, be grateful it's the only way to achieve true happiness.