I'm sorry
I take for granted that you will understand
That you will feel what I feel
How I'm feeling so sad and disappointed inside

I'm sorry
I forgot that you are not an adult
That you are still a tiny little boy
How I should not burden your small shoulders with my worries

I'm sorry
I must remind myself that I'm the parent
That you are merely a child, my child
How I should be the one looking after all

I'm sorry sugarbum
I really am

Do you give yourself room for down time?
Do you let yourself go and just feel every single feeling?
Do you lock yourself up and fall to the ground?
Do you allow yourself to taste every bitter pill?

You should
You should cut yourself some slack
You should allow yourself to be low so that you can rise
You should let yourself grieve and be sad
You should know that you cannot bully your own self
You should love yourself
You should

Aslan
You make me want to write
My most inner thoughts
May they are vulnerable and raw
You make me want to feel them all

I look at you and I see innocence
One I wish I can protect with all my might
One I wish will last forever and a day
One I wish shall remain pure as ever

You filled me up with your candid love
Your cheeky grins and contagious laugh
You make me feel I'm on top of the world
Your love so grand, I am so shy and honoured

Aslan
You are my love, my favourite person
Your little self ain't so little no more
You are my reason to work endlessly hard
Your entire being I won't let be full of woes

I love you lil lion of mine

Today

I am reminded that I am hated
That I am never good enough
That my past mistakes will forever haunt me
That repenting is a waste of time
That I will forever be judged by my sins

Tomorrow

I shall remind myself that I am loved more
That I am good enough
That I learned from my past mistakes
That repenting brings me closer to God
That I will instead be judged by how much I learned from my sins

You have a choice every single time

Make it good

Make it worth it

Make it memorable

Make it last

I dreamed of this day since that moment
When you left me just like that
To mend my immensely broken heart

13 years have passed
And yet, here we are again
You looked at me and I looked at you

All those years, I practiced all sorts of scenarios
Most are me slapping you really hard
And me giving you a piece of my mind

Yet, we stood here, in front of each other
I smiled and you smiled back
All the hurt I let vapoured away

You told me I was your biggest regret
I stood there silently with a smile on my face
We both know that what was once there will never return

God gave me you back, served on a silver platter
Giving me a chance to give back what you did
But in turn, I chose that moment to forgive you instead

You always thought that revenge is what you want
When instead forgiveness is what you need
I am free now, free forever from you

Thank you

Wow

That's what you made me feel

Wow