Strangers jeers and sneers,
tearing my flesh in the mirror,
nights I fell apart,
the years I stayed in pieces,
losing my heart,
sharing hers til she needed it whole,
all those lovely words,
watching her lips place knives
in my back,
all eternally painted behind my eyes
while my smile lies.

Built into a dream,
seen through a drunken veil.
Please don't delude yourself.
I am so very unremarkable ,
and many parts below.
Don't let a lack of love
convince you I am a rarity.
You deserve far more than I can give.
My shattered pieces
fit together in strange ways
that you adore,
and I abhor.

I want to play the song of my life
to the beat of your heart;
float and sink into your warm embrace.
A rythm so captivating
so soft,
so sure,
so steady.
I never want to lift my ear
from it's source;
never want to leave it's company.
This ***** that keeps time for me,
has given me a reason for being,
for bettering,
for loving,
for nurturing the seeds,
of a future
where our hearts pulse in sync
til they dont.

A long night and an early morning
strung together by a restless heart
and a mind fixated
on every question it has ever asked
itself.
Lamp light peeling back the veil of
stoicism, letting doubt seep
from sleepless eyes.

Hours slip by like minutes
precious minutes,
moments.
All that we're living for.
An existential
crisis,
and epiphany.
The beautiful sadness of everything.

Oh look,
the dawn.