i'm sorry for all the tears you have to soak up,
but your hugs will forever be my safe space.
not forgetting my weighted blankets,
wrapping me in sheets of sadness
as i slowly break down.
your embrace will always comfort me.
also the sad songs
don't ever forget the songs
their symphonies carrying me to another world
a world where i am not the only one.
a world where there is someone just like me
going through the same
as me.
and the cigarettes
the cigarettes i use to **** all the parts of me
the parts of me i don't like.
dear pillow
i'm sorry
sorry for all the tears.

Like that little sore on the inside of my cheek
i kept biting and chewing and biting at your love

you drown me  in oceans of emotions i am unable to swim in
and then you send me a life boat
just to toss me back into the ocean

you are the lover in my bed
but also the gun to my head
you love me fiercely
but you also hurt me deeply

my anxiety
is like an ab workout
tying knots in my stomach

he was  hell for her
but she didn't mind burning at all

and then it hits me like a tidal wave
...
what if i never feel that way for someone else again?
what if i can never fall in love again,
because they aren't you?
what if they don't make butterflies flutter in my tummy
like you did?
what if their kiss isn't warm & wet & real like yours?
and their hands...
what if their hands don't touch my soul but only my body?
what if i can never fall in love again
because they aren't you
???
....