all it takes is a
beautiful fake smile from me
to hide my injured soul.
and you will never notice
how truly
B
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O
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E
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i am.

you were never mine to begin with
but losing you
broke my heart all the same

You're not a writer
and i'm not a reader
but still your kisses
taste like poetry to me.

you are the drug that only works when I don't  need you
the alcohol intoxicating me when I should be sober
the **** cigar between my lips when I should be focusing
you are the crack pipe in my mouth when I should be breathing
you are the drug that only works when I don't need you
like ******* you make me high when I should be low
like ****** I am so addicted to you it hurts when you leave me
like acid you make me trip sometimes
you are the drug that only works when I don't need you
Like xanax you make me numb inside
like MDMA you make my skin prickle
like LSD I see things when i'm with you
you are the drug that only works when i don't need you....

at first i just liked you
but you were with her
then my like grew like a ****
and you're still with her
and now...
i love you
like a fool
but you're with her
you love her.
not me.

the way you only want me
when you need me
it's like i'm a glove
stored away in a drawer,
on hot days  
when things are good
you completely forget me.
and on cold days...
when things are hard,
you want to get me out
and use me again
to warm your soul.

i planted seeds in the holes you left on my heart
seeds of healing
and
seeds of happy
but most of all
seeds of acceptance.