Nikki

Nikki Nov 2020

Unworthy

I have written about love
Many times before
But in truth
I have never been in love
I have dreamt of it
So many times
But I have never felt its warmth

And it has always torn me apart
Sometimes I felt unworthy
And hated myself
But other times I felt
I had so much love to give

Yet I've always known
That no one wants me
And it has always haunted me
Even now as I'm failing to fall asleep
Or actually, crying myself to sleep
I ask myself why

#love #pain #loneliness

Nikki Oct 2020

The Voice

How do I silence
that suffocating voice
endlessly critiquing
sewing seeds of doubts
terrorising my mind
pushing all my buttons
relentlessly
and without remorse
how do I silence that
when it might just be
my own voice

#doubt

Nikki Oct 2020

Coward

Change comes
and I run

From the unknown
towards security
and comfort

Like a coward
crawling back in my shell
never to come out again?

#unknown

Nikki Oct 2020

Cracks

When people look at me
They don’t see me
or how I struggled
or the cracks
I had to glue together

No one knows
that every little ripple
might break me
for good

#struggle #cracks #ripples

Nikki Oct 2020

Constant Noise

I howl at the moon
to drown out the noise
That constant agonizing ringing
trying to **** out
all the life
Draining mind and soul
attempting to break my spirit

So I howl at the moon
to keep the noise at bay

#howling

Nikki Sep 2020

Let Me

Take out your sketchbook
And draw your future
Sketch your every dream
And every wish
Now let me colour it in
Page by page
Colour by colour
Let me make it all happen
And let me
be a part of it

#colourful #dreams

Nikki Sep 2020

Time

Time
We have so much of it
Yet never enough

#ticktock