I feel as if I were hit by a truck.
Joints aching.
Bones creaking.
Slow movement.
Internally suffer
as I pretend it doesn't hurt.
Tight muscles.
Fake smiles.
Can't get up.
Slowly drowning in my own pain.

Indirectly
I speak my mind
my heart
so I can have yours.
I want you
I was us
hid from the world

I have to make a change
or I'm going to fall
not that I haven't already started.
I focus hope on maybe it's not too late
but as days progress
I find different
The images in my head replay things I fear
things that reveal my hearts state
I question where I went astray
I access what I once thought I believed
not so very long ago
only not to realize there my heart still lies
or in my mind...
or something..
It's all becoming a trend
I wish I could love you right.
I wish I did
but the genie fades
and the pain resides
like it has once before.

you ever sit back and realize ur, not anybody's favorite person, you're just kinda there and then you get the sudden urge to distance yourself from everyone and be alone?!

I'm not her
she is pretty
I'm sun worn
She is kind
I am harsh
She never speaks her mind
I don't care how you reply to mine
She is perfect
I am far from it.

I miss you
I love you
I’m drunk
and I can’t think straight

My world is falling apart
Because I can’t stay sober without you