You used to be the man of my dreams
Now you're the man in my nightmares it seems
There was once a time when you would hold me tight
But now your embrace only fills me with fright
With your words like swords dripping with spite
My chronic demoralization is your delight
How could our love bring us so much pain
When both of us hurting is making us insane
Must I step up to be the bigger person here
When I know that letting you go is facing my fear

Right now?
I hate you.
You project your petty insecurities
On me
Make me feel
Like it’s MY FAULT
You feel this way

It’s YOUR brain
It’s YOUR insecurities
Take control
Stop placing blame
Grow the **** up

As we continue onward

I float through my misery
Afraid to touch the ground
Fearful of my own footprints

As you slither your way through your despair
Overturning rocks and collecting filth

Our mutual weirdness steeps in anguish
A past we cannot let go of
Flaming egos we cannot extinguish

I see him in my scars.
I pray they fade away.
For now I have to live with them.
Every.
Single.
Day.