Some people would call you a ballon
That’s just more room for me to swoon
Your round and that’s bad
The world see pounds so sad
Because your flawless in your walk
But they stay with salt
Quick to shame you for your choice
Like we need their voice
Whether thick chubby curvy or fat
All that means to me
Is where I’m going to pick you up at?
They can keep there
Loose leaf paper chick
Her attitude make me sick
Who is nothing but hair and eyes
Always focused who shares and why?
I can’t lie
At times they get my attention
But if you jiggle then you get a extension
My ladies who are bad with good weight
Can always have a date
Because your body is my meal
And I always eat two plates

You separate us more than a line
You created more divide than time
Once I wear your I’m labeled
No matter what I do
They always look at you
I wear you as status
Too show my wealth
Even though you **** my health
If I don’t buy you then I’m not myself
Because everyone else like me has you
How dare I be something else
I’m stuck up if I turn my nose to you
Or called lame
All because my jump man
Doesn’t have a number or name
Some would call you a staple
Hell even a right of passage
But all I see blood and havoc
Yet they all walk past it
All for there feet
While many died before it came overseas
I hate you and I pray you go away
But it will never happen
Because we will **** anybody
For bread we can’t eat any day
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I want to say thanks
To my bullies in the third grade
You shoved me into urinals
Punched and pushed
Even called me the nword
I hope you never get flipped a bird
To my middle school I thank you
Your closed minded views
And repugnant use of my name
You kept me down and broken
I hope you stay so outspoken
To my high school class thank you
You turned cold and distant
Even isolated and shamed me
My ex even made a meme of me
For a project in class
I hope that helped her pass
To college thank you
First I broke my arm then
My friend had *** with my girl
And I was homeless
I hope your parties aren’t foamless
To my old friends thank you
For leaving me out from a trip
Never hearing my pain
And always pointing at me to blame
I hope no girls call y’all lame
Lastly thank you me
For being weak so I could grow strong
For being scared so I could find bravery
For being lost so I could build a home
Thank you to you all because now
I never feel alone

I hold my breath when I speak
Afraid it sneak
I want to let it out
It makes me want to shout
But I can’t say a word
Even though it’s my bird
Mind turned into a jigsaw
Putting pieces together my flaw
Because my friends want to forget
I feel so low I need a outlet
My heart springs out my chest
So ready to confess
My eyes go from pedestrian
To friend
To why they let me in
My body rigid and shaken
Since morales I’m breaking
Please don’t tell more
Please close the door
Please call my phone
So I can go home
They drop me off
Knowing I wouldn’t dare cough
I hope to get in bed and cry
Why did I go on a date with a guy?

I need one
One love
One person who understands me best
One who will pass the test
One that will never shy
One I can wake up to and say hi
I need one
One believer
One I know has faith
One that sees me finishing the race
One who goes all in
One where no matter what I win
I need one
One friend
One laugh that makes me cry
One smile to keep me high
One yin to my yang
One when I’m down makes me sang
I need one
One beauty
One skin that radiants the sun
One gaze which shoots like a gun
One body built for me
One with imperfections I love to see
I need one
One year I will meet u
One month we will kiss
One week later and I might miss
The one day where I have bliss

She was teasing to the eye
Flirted with my mind
Kissed my soul
Shes everything I want
But she is destined to take my life
I know because what we are doing
Even a presist wouldn’t want to know
My sin burns me on the inside
To know it’s out of my hands now
She the owner and I’m the qb
I get on a knee only if she needs
My body her toy she plays with at will
I see her and know
pleasure is all she desires
no matter what time we meet
Her body soothes the monster but
Stirs the ****** in me
I can’t believe how free I would be
If her lustful curves didn’t speak
Parts of me wants all of you
But the world wouldn’t want that view
So I have to take my 38 percent
And smile right thru
You admitted that you share my fantasy
Where one can be two
Now I’m confused but what is new
I love you and that shouldn’t have been so
See I’m already in a love square and you make the right angle
I would die if i expressed how high I get when I kiss your thigh
So I keep my dreams only in mind because at least I get my Disney story just without all the rhyme

Many need liquor
To be sicker
But go figure
I can get it without a flicker
Y’all get dripped up
Then hiccup
I get lit with a ***
Short for title because books
Have no rivals
Knowledge ensures progression
Just heed the lesson
And receive my vocabulary blessing
Or keep loosing Jeff sessions

I die every time
you cross my mind
I wish I hate you
because loving you is hell
I rather go blind then
Not see u well
We meet when I was eight
From there I knew love was real
You keep me warm
through all of life’s chill
We grew up
But our bond stayed young
Your my ear on a hard day
My blanket on a lonely night
Everything was perfect
until you lost your life
Other people just saw you
But I saw a wonderful thing
To just call you human
Would insult your brain
You feel me better than anyone
You know when to speak
You know when to roll over
And you know when stay
I never forget the day you left
We drove to the office
Where they made it clear
Die here or die at home
My heart and mind tore in two
Logic and love
two words I wish I never knew
I held back my tears like a ****
Fixed my face
hugged and kissed your head
so deeply as to make your dreams sweet
Before you leave
I was alone as I watched
the grim reaper take you away
The look in your eye haunts me til this day
I just hope that
forgiveness and understanding
Was in her brain the day I choose
Your life away

I know it’s easy to let it go
Just look at everyone you know
They toss it around like play-do
Only to realize there are worst things than being a ***
We are all born with it at zero
A fresh car with no dents
I’m not trying to be a hero
Cuz I know how it torments
To feel left out or still a kid
No matter your stance
Or even if you parents forbid
You will seek out romance like it hid
Give it away fast and
watch you get hooked
On flesh no matter the host
Your body will stayed booked
While they’ll go ghost after the late night toast
If that’s not the case you can feel a roast
Without jokes but it burns the same
Have you regretting at most
That you weren’t a pro at the night game
Why not throw a baby in the mix
That’s what got me picked
Somedays I rather hang from a crucifix
Than bear the fact that I’m an addict
Strung out if I didn’t feel a nut or hear a scream
My life is a psa for the
world reckless *** can breed
The feeling might make you feel supreme
But Diana Ross would say
read before
you speed
into losing
respect all for
Catching or giving a seed

He was my knight
That sweep me off my feet
He was sweet and tall
He would always spoil me at the mall
Well at lest after I fall
He buys me flowers
He walks me to school
He treats my body like his personal tool
He cooks dinner
He cleans the house
He said I wouldn’t be bleeding
If i was quiet like a mouse
He has a good job
His family loves me
Too bad after they leave he will
He will be Jekyll with no where to Hyde
My mom says it’s a part of marriage
My sisters looks in disparage
My father thinks he’s a prince in a carriage
I just hope he doesn’t cause me another miscarriage

The thought hurts so bad
That the game has turned sad
To take away a voice
And replace it with silence
Who let that go
Who let me know
When freedoms are allowed
Only conditional
The insane overseer controls his puppets
And to know that I use to have strings
Tossed twisted pulled and pushed
My career was a slave dream
Filled with a combine built like a auction
A contract like the slaves just with more change involved
Whips are the fines, jails, and blacklist
That you eagerly get assigned
Dare you speak without a sheet
Or with your mind
I kneel for injustice
I kneeled to be free
I kneeled to show my struggle
But to you a unthankful **** is all you see
I raise my hand for help but you rather me melt then disturb your selfish wealth
You must see the whole frame I love starry night but van goh was insane
To only see the vision and fall halfway thru
Football is tied to Jim Crow in the expression view
Owners spread bigotry,and lie on the truth
Expand dollars to shrink everything we do
So since we can’t say no to cops killing,
Wrongful jail dates or the rigid two step back and one half step forward life
I won’t watch the nfl
I won’t partake in a game
I wouldn’t even tag they twitter name
So this is my hurtful goodbye
To something that was so high
I wish you could see it with my eye

He looks so nice and well mannered
But nobody knows his standard
He hates so much color
I think he lives in black and white
Because if your brown
He will erase you out of spite
My next door terrorist
Has a pool and family
Real American dream
However his nightmares
would make you scream
He envisions a world where his people are on top
As if we were the ones taking a shot
To prideful to admit he’s wrong
He gladly **** you
If you sang your own song
My next door terrorist
Is loved by the neighborhood
They say he is sweet
Don’t let the blonde hair fool you
He’d cut me open like meat
His room riddled with posters of trump
And flags of hate
With one mission in mind
To eliminate
My next door terrorist
Is considered shy and shut in
Misunderstood some would say
Would they still call him that
If he used a gun to spray
And exterminate my race away?
My next door terriost
We all know to well
He was bullied or needed a hug
So why am I under his shoe like a bug
My next door terrorist  
Goes to church and sings in the choir
My life and many other like mine
Is all he desires
So to my next door terrorist
I’m sure you will go free
Because no matter what you do
I’m the only threat the world
Will ever see

Stare at me all day
Just poke and click away
You couldn’t make it without me no way
I hold your money and friends
I tell you all the trends
You would never leave me in the end
I could find you love or the plug
Even help to fix your rug
I stay in your hand like a drug
I make you look fleek
Take you to your peak
But if I die you go weak
I control your car, lights, and fridge
Get you over a bridge
You cry if I cracked a smidge
Your kids beg to have me
Will be salty like the sea
If you took away their glee
I’m always bought and sold
I will never get old
Because you can’t break my hold
I was made to call and that’s it
However thanks to some much witt
Now I’m humanity’s only fit

I drive in fear
The roads are cemeteries
Because I know their near
My fate never varies
I don’t have to swerve
Or run a light
I’m on their shooting preserve
And I’m a dear at night
They say I’m dangerous
So they must fire to survive
But when they endanger us
The world takes five
I tremble as I start my car
Buckle my belt to go
I pray their far
Or else become a cnn cameo
Call my wife mom and kid
I pull out the parking lot
I rather get a bid
Then a buckshot
Three lights in
Two miles left
One costly sin
I turned with no signal which is like theft
The chilling cold blue came quick
I pray to god and text goodbye
Because with just a snap
I can die

Here we go again
Another notch on my belt
For a game I can never win
For you it’s the pleasure and sensation
For me freedom is my only destination
Plagued by depression and pain
Held together by insecurities in my brain
Only the feeling of flesh eases everything
No one understands my hunger
they think it’s just my Y chromosome
But here is where I don’t feel alone
No matter the cost or who I lost
I need your body so I know I’m boss
It’s a sickens that I can’t treat
The only prescription I have
Is more of me inside of
Whoever that I seek
At least for that week