I get hot a lot
Not like a thot
So when I see flames
I go insane
Like bs replacing cs effect me
But my red pill disagree
It keeps me level
Even though it’s the work of the devil
My arm broke
Because of a dumb joke
So the doctor says “let’s go blue”
I Popped it and it was true
My pain went away
But depression decided to stay
Now I have the blues everyday
Maybe I should go back on Monday
“Is your face real low?
Then give yellow a go.”
Says el chapo with a degree
Now I’m high like a jetson tree
At least I’m happy now
Also I don’t sleep somehow
The box was green
Read “take one and sleep serene”
My body felt untamed and strange
Like I did a soul exchange
I don’t care about anything
I couldn’t feel a bee sting
I wish I could stop
But that’s the plot
To keep my visits on going
Since the money overflowing
I just want the striking to cease
Or my sarcastic demise to bring peace
Otherwise my life is a jigsaw puzzle piece

I made a angel fall
The ground shock in awe
As I exposed it’s flaw
It loved me like no other
It saw me as no brother
Only fault was to know my name
I saw from the clouds it’s fame
Perfect wings and eyes that were holy
To bad my soul was a goalie
You could never get me to see the light
Even if I had your sight
I knew I was hurting you the whole time
But being around you was to divine
Your hair fell , your glow dimmed
Our time was being trimmed
Your back scared with the knives I placed
But you still let me have my taste
You gave me your only gift
So I could treat it like a shift
No feathers or halo to boot
Tears of blood and skin like a dried fruit
All I had to do was
Love you like you loved me
But instead I watched you fall
And stepped over your to go ball
Your arm stretched out for help
Praying I save you kindly
I walk past you so blindly
I wish I saw what u saw
When our eyes meet
To you I must be godly and worth it all
To me your just another angel on my wall

Crackling of fish frying
Corn boiling
Momma sewing
The best days for Tj
He remembers them so
How sad it is
His heart is low
The joke she told he missed
All because candy needed a fix
Hugs, kisses, and love he dissed
While selling bricks
He wished for more time
But always had to grind
She wanted him and
He wanted money
Why couldn’t he just let her be his mommy?
How could he they needed a dad
No man in his life only fiends
And addicts filed his dreams
With a habit that no one could
Snap
Green, chains, and women
How could he say no?
While his mother cries
He lies and the community
Dies all for wallet size
All he had to do was be a sun
So he could rise up
But he set every night
Losing his inner light
They did finally talk
They finally made time
She offered dinner
And he decided to go after nine
However the devil had plans
He wronged a addict long ago
Now he was looking to say hello
With a knife gun or a ***
My how that arsenal grows
Tj made it home stunned to see
No mom in the home
Food still hot
He didn’t know but his mom been popped
See on the way back with rolls
The addict filled her with holes
Thinking that Tj was driving
From back in the day
So he pulled a Mac-11
Which sent she her to heaven
At the funeral many cried and yelled
Yet Tj decided to skip and bail
All because he had another brick to sell

I’m deadlier than aids
Make you cut someone with a blade
All the time used for trade
Men would **** their brother
One after another
Cuz I’m like no other
There taught without me your not a man
Cut down by an invisible hand
Without me they have no command
So they sweat, bleed and die
But why
All for a capitalist lie
My women are no better
Out here getting wetter
For a investment letter
Willing to be a product for me
But would run if you see
What she could do on a knee
First for a car then college and her son
Now she hooked on me like a gun
Shaking for her next bank run
The kids are truly the worst off
They cling to there’s folk like a moth
And learn that they couldn’t afford broth
So now they dream about green
Because the streets ain’t clean
Your pops up on the screen
Over a ****** scene
Mom drinks lean hoping it’s a dream
All the while there child sees
In their mind I’m the only solution
That equals restitution
Before they die of pollution
I’m sad that I cause this much pain
Make folks go insane
Even be inhumane
All for a capital gain

I wonder if my late night plays
Will ever be relayed
To a generation that is slayed
In my play every black home
Has two stories, a fence
and a dad that won’t roam
Their cars ain’t all chrome
No bars on the windows
No grandmas saying lord knows
When cops shows
There are more colors than grey
No dope boys on the corner cliche
Or dogs on chains barking to get away
The colors blue and red stand for a flag
The black youth aren’t in a body bag
And pants never sag
Black men aren’t scary and mean
The system isn’t their adversary or
The silver screen
They don’t fill cemeteries nor chase
The color green
Black women have a name
Not ***** or **** used as shame
No fakes buts for their fame
The son has more hope
Then shooting a ball and ****** bout dope
He aspires to use a stethoscope
The daughter is strong and free
She can either write a song or get a PhD
Her future is whatever she wants it to be
Their ain’t thugs on tv our color
Not every sitcom has one strong black single mother
Or get drunk and fight one another
Gun violence is a joke
the police don’t chock our folk
Our music don’t promote drug use
And Gucci don’t ******
Drivebys are now hi’s
Every family is woke and wise
It’s sad to know
That this world won’t ever exist
Because the world outside
Is to nightmarish

I hold your brain
Even though they call you lame
Despite the pain
You use me to stay ahead of the game
But things have changed
I’m getter lighter everyday
Instead of books and paper
I feel metal inside
What could he be doing with maps?
And why all the caps?
You have changed so now
Instead of study hall at 11
We’re at the gun range til 7
I miss our locker so
Now all I know
Is it takes 9 guns till I blow
It doesn’t feel right
Where are you going with this?
I don’t see a enemy insight
But I couldn’t tell if I read what you write
Who is this “they” that will pay?
Answer me please
Or let’s just freeze
We left for school late
Headed for you violent date
Packed with semis and automatics
I hope this doesn’t end up tragic
You walk in the cafe with no intention to eat
I feel you put me down and slowly unzip
I pray that this is only it
Then I hear the shots and the screams too
Why couldn’t you have just said
I needed help Drew

The darker I am
Then the harder to see
Me in anything besides a penitentiary
Because that’s the view people get
Even from the six
Mixes me into a criminal description
Where Dark skin
means a quick conviction
Also I’m none to bright
Since my skin ain’t light
But instead that got replaced with might
Which makes me aggressive
If you ask anyone
who more likely to fight
Of course the dark one
so run
Dare we shed a tear
police come near
As being dark skin
and crying brings fear
Because we can’t
check our emotions
My dear
Ladies of shade I feel your pain
Your viewed uglier than most
Because your skin
Doesn’t roast
But I bet they still joke
and call you toast
Despite having the
most unblemished skin around
They treat you like coffee grounds
They don’t even like your sound
Saying you yell all day
Even when your voice is sultry
Enough to slay
Yellow for the fellows ain’t so mellow
Immediately he soft
cause of complexion
But look at his reflection and the cops
Will make a exception
Your a pretty boy
That can annoy joy out of a toy
My fair ladies
this might be shady
But your as needy as a Brady
Latest shoes all the fenty
Ask anyone and
god blessed you plenty
They say you not humble
But I see your bumble
Your gracious until a rumble
Where does all this lip
come from
Look in the mirror
We bad mouth our bother
Even if we have same the mother
All because life makes us a runner
Stop increasing hate
And dictate our fate
By improving for all our sake