Lostling

Lostling Mar 26

Appetite

Breakfast passes
Recess passes
Lunch passes too

It’s been twenty-something hours since I’ve eaten any food

I probably should.

But I’m not hungry and I don’t care.

#appetite #food

Lostling Mar 26

Mourning You; Alive

And suddenly I’m at your funeral
                                                                   again. Your body is

          bloodied, laying in the little, black, box.

                                                              Your face is marred.

Or maybe it’s my tears
                                                       that make me
                forget
                                                                                            how you look(ed)
              You shouldn’t be there.               I won’t be there.
                                              Unless you call for me.         But
                                                                              dead people don’t speak.

And then I’ll climb down to your bed
Just to make sure you’re still breathing

#death #loss #funeral

Lostling Mar 21

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A name
Replaced by dashes
Who were they?
And where did they go?

Lostling Mar 21

Procrastination

The call has fallen silent
                               My pen must rest
I will return
                     Perhaps later

If only homework could be done the same way

#procrastination

Lostling Mar 20

Pinpricks of white

I never knew
The beauty of light
Until I was surrounded by darkness

Only at night can you see the stars…

#light #dark #stars #hope

Lostling Mar 17

Resignation

The darkness is coming,
You know this all too well.
You can see the drowning sun
Feel the breath of the icy wind
As the night stretches its claws across the sky

The darkness is coming.
And there's nothing you can do
But watch as the last rays of light shatter
And your fragile hope flickers,
Fading into ash.

The darkness is coming
You wait with dread
As ink bleeds into the sky,
And shadows crawl from the cracks
To dance upon your fears.

The darkness is coming
You fight for your life
But the shadows coil around your lungs,
Dragging you down,
Where your screams are swallowed whole.

The darkness is coming
And you almost welcome it,
Letting it pull you under,
Where broken dreams and forgotten prayers
Linger in the void.

The darkness is coming.
So you surrender,
Eyes closed,
Heart still beating—
Waiting for whatever comes next.

#resignation #givingup

Lostling Mar 16

Anther Year Passes

I remember
The days
I grew up
Beaming,
Laughter threading through the halls
Like echoes that knew my name.

And when I left
My only regret
Was never hearing them sing
The ode to me.

Still,
I knew
I mattered to them.
Their words I'll keep
In the folds of my heart
Or tucked away in lines of code

But this year
They're silent.
And I stand outside,
Face to the sky,
I pray for rain to fall
So I will not weep alone.

Taking care to remember everyone
Only to be forgotten in the end

God I was so happy last year...

#forgotten #sad