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  Jul 2015 Darlene Chavez
Nicole Dawn
"Are you okay?"
You ask

"Well define 'okay'"
I answer

My heart is beating
Granted, too fast

My blood is flowing
I just checked

My brain is functioning
I'm thinking too much

My stomach is active
It's angry for me not eating

My lungs are moving
I'm just out of breath

Beyond physically?
No I'm definitely not okay
I'm so tired...
Darlene Chavez Jul 2015
I lied
When I said I was fine
I'm not
I'm not

My heart hurts
And I think too much
I'm not worth
your love

Because I'm broken
yeah my wrist is open
I wasn't worth it anyways
I don't matter anyhow

Because I'm tired
I'm so tired
Just.. so tired
Darlene Chavez Jul 2015
I think I'm broken and I can't be fixed
I think I'm forever alone because no one wants this
My nightmares stare deep inside of me
They won't let me be free
Darlene Chavez Jul 2015
I think I'm done
Life is what I want
After years of pain and sorrow
And depression
This is what I want

Of course I'm not going to be happy everyday  
And of course there's going to be days where I'm down in the dirt
But that's okay
There are going to be days where all I feel is hurt
I just got to work through it
Because I'm stronger than it
I can do it
At least I think I can
Darlene Chavez Jul 2015
Death is near
I hear it whispering in my ear
It's breath is cold
But very bold
It's almost here
My time is near
I'm sorry
Goodbye
Darlene Chavez Jul 2015
You broke my heart
Into a million tiny pieces
But it's okay
Because those pieces are the lightning bugs
That light my path.
Darlene Chavez Jul 2015
I stopped eating because I was tired of gaining weight
I stopped weighing myself because I was tired of disappointment
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