Cream colored curtains and a brown couch
A twin bed and my messed up head
These wrinkled sheets and I might be a bit of a grouch

Cried myself to sleep here, laughed until I cried here
His picture on my nightstand, a dozen dead roses next to it
My safe place where I have no fear

The comforts of being naked
Mentally exposed and denuded
My space so open yet so secluded

Identical night lamps and a 10 dollar mirror
White walls, with posters of the places I’ve been
Everything so visible even with the lights dimmer

Melted down on this carpeted floor
But I vacuumed it before
Lay with me and close that door

I give but I don’t get
Makes me feel like an old cassette
It keeps playing the same part of the song
Over and over again
And the ones I love keep doing me wrong
Over and over again

I act like it doesn’t affect me
I act all cool about it
When it feels like a hit on my spirit

No matter what I feel
My love for you doesn’t seem to fade
It continues to be as strong as steel

Every time I think about it
My eyes are filled with tears
It reminds me
How people just cheat on me year after year

Trust just seems like a precious stone
Rare to find and uncommon to own
Everyone wants it, not everyone can have it
Seems like we are all such hypocrites

Huge parts of me have been battered
All these parts really mattered
I doubt that they are fixable
This time the damage seems irreversible

Those were the days
We saw each other each day
Things change, people change but pictures remain the same

All those little things you said
I think of them and they make me think
Is there a part of the story I misread?

Laying on my bed, all lights off
I look outside the window
See nothing but fog
Just like the weather, our relation seems hazy

I told you to love me
only if you can stay
only if you can learn to stand still and not drift away
Don't turn out to be like others
After all, people they come they go

I told you people always leave
You promised me you'd stay
Now there's no sign of you
I can't believe

I'm fragile that you know
Please tell me our love didn't outgrow
I'm only as weak as I am strong
Our friendship was supposed to last lifelong

Regardless of what you did
Just know that I love you oh
Maybe loving you was stupid
I'm dying inside but I'm putting up a show

We'd go to the gym, cook and eat together
We'd chill, we'd laugh, there was no pressure
Where did the good times go?
Now I look at your picture and just miss you so

Trying so hard to figure out
What went wrong,
My heart is filled with doubt
Asking myself why don't we hang out?
We really used to get along

So I say, come back and let's live again
Let's laugh until the end
Come back and let's start over
So much left to learn, so much to discover

So I say, come back cause I miss you
Life ain't the same without you
Let's stay up until 2 am
Cause you're the breath that I breathe from the bottom of my diaphragm

I put on a mask every single day
When I'm thinking so many things I don't say
When my heart is breaking but my lips curve to a smile
When I miss you and I just wanna pick up the phone and dial

I put on a mask every single day
Walking alone in these long hallways
Mastering the art of hiding my emotions
My mind feels it can create an explosion

I put on a mask everyday
You might not see it on the outside
Maybe cause you just look at the bright side
Adding layers to this mask everyday

I put on a mask everyday
I'd be lying if I said I'm not deceiving
I don't apologize if this is not appealing
I just wanna runaway

He gets so jealous
Makes me nervous
He's not afraid of my darkest side
He stands by me with complete pride

He says he wants me no matter what I do
I wonder if he understands what he's got himself into
He says I fit in him and on him so perfectly
I want to love him until the end of eternity

To be honest, I get really jealous too
The thought of someone else with him makes me blue
It makes me wanna destroy the world and hide him in my embrace
Forgive the violence, I'm just trying to be honest

The idea that I did him wrong
Made me wanna torture myself
I'm filled with disgust and pain
Just wanna make sure I don't this again

Cause I love you more than i love me
I want you more than I want my art
I have known you just for a while now
But I will stand by you no matter what, if you allow

Cause you are the beautiful white snow
That's falling from the sky
making everything a pleasure to the eye
I'm the snow that's reached the ground
The one that's been stepped on and damped around
The one that's no longer white and appealing
But I love you more than anything in the world, listen to my words and start believing

You set my soul on fire
Each little freckle on your face
I’ve studied and I admire
I could close my eyes and retrace
Each little freckle on your face

You fill me up with desire
You make me wish for better
Before you came along, I was okay, I was fine
Now you hold me together like my spine
Now I have a soul that’s on fire
And a heart filled with desire

Today is a day like none other
I am calm, and I'm at peace
My mind isn't running at its fastest speed
My body still relaxes as I continue to bleed

I feel my senses heightened
My life seems enlightened
This day made me realize
We take too much for granted
There's hope in children's eyes
In the morning skies
Being able to live and breathe is a huge prize

I feel content
Like a farmer does after a hard day of work
Like a child playing in the park
The way I feel when I can close my eyes and smell your scent

I found there's beauty in simplicity
In just getting through the day and fulfilling responsibility
In having a heavy breakfast and an afternoon nap
In doing laundry and keeping away my thinking cap

We take too much for granted
From the life we've been given and the people in it
We need to learn to be happy in what we've been handed
For the only thing certain about life and the people in it
Is that to both of these, death is always granted

Put your chin up and stand tall my love
There's so much that you should be proud of
I know you're feeling sad and unsatisfied
But just try to look at the bright side

Don't forget what your worth
You're here to make a difference
Come to me, let me hold you tight and give you my warmth
You've the world left to see, so much to experience

Always remember that it's okay to be lost
Break down but get back up stronger at any cost
Always remember that I will be by your side
No matter the day or the night

On days that you feel like you're a failure
Let my words be your savior
On days that you don't believe in yourself
Look at yourself from my eyes, borrow my vision
Trust my intuition
You'd know how much you're admired
How much and how often you're looked up to
Maybe then you'd feel a little inspired
To do all the things you want to

So put your head up
And wear your crown
For if you do anything else, it might fall down