You say im part of something , but never felt like it
You say im happy, but you don’t know how I feel
You think im happy go lucky , but inside im crumbling
You say im shy but its just my insecurities
You say im rich , but never did I say it
You say my parents are wealthy but I doubt it too
You all look happy but I know that’s just plastic
You look like plastic , hard as Tupperware too
You say you are understanding never did i feel it
Only from a person did I get it
You think im emotionless , dead alive and true
Inside im dead and outside too
I do have emotions but most are not true
I hate most of you
Because you hate me too
That’s a fact and you know it
You say I should **** myself , shouldn’t you too?

Red ink all smothered at the bay of my palms ,
Need a quill to collect and stop the bleeding crust
Small rusty hands and yet like water gaging in
Blank spaces , open minds and blank faces seeping in
Help me move while the clock says
Tick tock
Fly to the stars like an airplane
Time stops
As the dead star passes
Another lights up
Help me choose
Before I give up

Weakness
Like little legs all frail
No appettite to eat
Slow harsh breath
Dancing in the meadows of pain
Oh dear light
Dont get close to me
For i have a mission to continue
But if you do let me have the time
To be with my owner

A fight in the crowd of soldiers
A bag full of water and a red tape of gauge
Left to confinement
As i dont want my owner to see me have a life battle

A ring to a sign
A text to be read
Everything i saw was bluriness
Then i see slash of black in the atmosphere of light
A sign
Sadness is all i feel
Numb is too at the side of guilt
Let this be a dream for i am not ready
Dont let me go for i cant
Help me know what is true and not
Help me accept the facts
Give me a silent clock
For i can not bear to hear the tick tock
For i dont want the time ticking fast
Fast as my hearbeat roars
Bluriness stains my eyes
Eyes sting like a bee bit them

You may shoot me with words
But you dont know the path im in
You may shout at me with disgust
But ill never show you im weak
You may think im strong but know im human too
You can **** me with your eyes but remember i have the strenght too
Take the piercing pain in the depths of my soul
Carry me like a fragile glass made of stone
Throw me from a cliff for i can fly
Let me be with my love for all i want is to die

Im dead inside
But you made me come alive
Like a little marionette
You picked me my strings up
You even made my lips curl up
Yet you left and so as my - soul
My body lifeless once more
Dead and empty
Like a bullet pierced through me
But here i am waiting for you to come back

Head lights , tail lights ,burning incandescent hearts
Interwining finger tips at the very end of light
Inflaming souls dead end
Brick houses , red jouses-and a knight shinning armour
Who must you save o forlorn
Brief and despair for my dead heart
Broken into pieces to my very gut
Let destiny play its very last cupid's luck
Too much chances already given up
Struck me your arrow oh dear Cupid's bow
Tie me to the person to the very last
End of time when must you come
Struck me the lightning of eureka
For i have an idea