Young but not naive
helpless but you never came back
The scars that run so deep
can never be fine

Falling asleep is a blur
never dreaming
just empty stares
as reality starts to wake

After all this time
all this why's
still you can't see
that I was never blind

I loved you more
but you never knew
part of me still dies
every time I remember I'd let you go

We are two souls destined
yet time intervened

For every tick of the clock
is a second never gotten back

What was once a unison flow
is now a mismanagement of pause

Now two clock strikes
but never in the same phase

My silence
doesn't mean fortitude
it hides weakness
behind solitude

My smiles
doesn't mean happiness
it masquerades pain
behind this face

My apathy
doesn't mean endurance
an illusion of problems
behind every assurance

My insights
doesn't mean being wise
a deception of madness
behind every eyes

For every clear picture
lies something twisted
an ironic mixture
of life that existed

Love is blind
But it doesn't mean physical attraction
It goes beyond that notion of mankind
It means love is a passion

It is a choice
to become better
to stay
despite the flaws that never goes away

A choice
to pick her
despite the wrong
no matter how strong

A choice
to fight for what you had
whether it be good
or bad

A choice
to make a difference
even if years had passed
you make it last

A choice
to make her see
that she is worth it
after all this years

A choice
to see the whole spectrum
in amidst
of every storm

A choice
to love her
no matter what
no matter when
no matter where
and no matter how

All my life
I protect the ones I love
from the hurt and pain
but never for myself

I felt I was alone
I felt sadness grips my neck
I felt sick
I felt nothing

Then you came
so sweet and good
you saw my demons
yet you stayed

I saw you were like me
apathetic
sad
and alone

I wanted to protect you
even if it means
for me to die and live
again and again

We
dance with the toughest tempest
masquerade with our demons
together

Your question
is also my question
"What did I do to deserve
someone like you"

Then the answer came to me:
You've done so much for others
you felt all the **** in the world
it is time for you
to have someone do it for your

I will always make you see
the good
even in darkest times
I'll be by your side

I felt so much pain
So much sadness

I felt alone
I felt all hope is lost

I know it may seems greedy
But is it wrong
to ask for happiness?

To pray
that I could shield the ones I love
from the **** I've gone through

To ask
that they would only see the good
while I take all that is not

To protect
the ones I love
in this world full of imperfections

To wish
all the negative things
would never happen

I would do anything
give everything
to protect
them

Even if it means
to die
rise
and die again

I know I should be happy
But why is there fear?

I know I should be excited
But why is there anxiety?

I know I should be grateful
But why do I feel spiteful?

I know I should respect you
But why do I feel I shouldn't?

I know I should look up to you
But why can't I?

Your past mistakes maybe forgiven
But I have never forgotten it

Maybe that's why
I'm like this

Maybe that's why
I feel like this

I know I should say I'm sorry
But why is it hard to say?

Because you mean the world to me
yet I never felt that I was to you

Still I Love you
Because you are my father