I felt so much pain
So much sadness

I felt alone
I felt all hope is lost

I know it may seems greedy
But is it wrong
to ask for happiness?

To pray
that I could shield the ones I love
from the **** I've gone through

To ask
that they would only see the good
while I take all that is not

To protect
the ones I love
in this world full of imperfections

To wish
all the negative things
would never happen

I would do anything
give everything
to protect
them

Even if it means
to die
rise
and die again

I know I should be happy
But why is there fear?

I know I should be excited
But why is there anxiety?

I know I should be grateful
But why do I feel spiteful?

I know I should respect you
But why do I feel I shouldn't?

I know I should look up to you
But why can't I?

Your past mistakes maybe forgiven
But I have never forgotten it

Maybe that's why
I'm like this

Maybe that's why
I feel like this

I know I should say I'm sorry
But why is it hard to say?

Because you mean the world to me
yet I never felt that I was to you

Still I Love you
Because you are my father

How happy are the forgetful?
Their blunders never remembered

How can they have bliss?
When part of them never existed

What do they pray for?
when all of their wishes resigned

They forget the world
and the world forgot them

Eternal sunshine of a spotless mind
never have I wanted you more
for the pain that stayed
can easily be erased

For every fight we make
Is equal to the smoke I take
For every tears you shed
A day of my life is spent

For every disappointment you feel
Is a bottle of bear that drowns me to sleep
And for every darkness you see
Is death for me

All of my vices come to life
When I can never make you smile
For every emotions I ****
Is equal to the life I spill

Sorry for my imperfections
And sorry for being me
But I thank you
For still loving me

The only palette of red
amidst the spectrum of grey
laying beneath the green bed
you beauty won't decay

I love you in blue
I love you in white
I love you in every hue
but most of all I love you, when you're just right

No matter how many thorns
No matter how long the time you grow
you will always be adorned
by the radiance you show

By the time you wilt
by the time you decay
all the guilt
comes to stay

But still I thank thee
for showing me
the true meaning of radiance
in every color variance

Oh what wonders you contain
when I traverse you in style
All of my pain
turns into smile

There's such places to see
same ends to meet
all are paradise for me
produces memories so sweet

you shine during the day
you radiate beauty by night
all my troubles be away
when I see you in my sight

You dream maker
My sweet lover
let me drift
in your eternal rift

You who blew a gentle kiss in my cheek
You who makes the light weak
You who is silent
You who brings unspeakable violence

You who are cloaked with grey
You who comes to stay
You who cry
You who are in the sky

You who brings life
By the means of strife
A dim light produces evermore
When you shout a roar

Serenity is what you are from the start
Destruction is what you leave when you part
The sky is once again clear
with a bright color sphere