Labhrás

Labhrás Jul 13

I sit alone
In the shell of what was
Contemplating how it was I got here

Head and heart vacated
Thoughts and emotions left to aimlessly swirl
A void devoid of direction and motion

When did I lose sight of the door
Was it always gone from the time I entered
And when did it reappear

What will I see when I open it again
Will those I knew still be there
Is the world the same place I left

And what of those I could hear while trapped
Those that left when I disappeared
How could I expect them to find me again

#loss #depression #grief #healing

Labhrás Jul 13

Captive Lightning

Flickering stars of summer nights
Green grass fields bind them to earth.
Fly and join the immensity of stars in the sky
Burn as bright as those far off relatives.

I kept a star captive in a jar next to my heart
For months my steady companion.
Me the admirer and also the jailer
Licuricia se sufocă, fără știrea mea.

To see you go burns a hole in my heart
Yet watching your light fulfilled is peace.
I’ll be right here on or under the earth
Longing to see my firefly flicker next to me.

Excuse the very probably poor Romanian. I don’t speak it but it was important for me that that line was in the language.

#firefly #love #loss

Labhrás Sep 2019

Confusion and change

What happened
Where did I go wrong
Who am I now.

Questions move and flow
In a constant flurry
And still I’m just left with how.

How did I get here
What did I do
Or maybe it was unstoppable

Where once I found security
Now I find dispare;

Where have I become to little,
Or where was I never there.

Labhrás Dec 2018

....

There are no words.
...

Maybe someday I will find them

A familiar feeling

#confusion

Labhrás Dec 2018

Dear A…M….C……..P….

You will never see this
I’ve buried it back in time
Back before I knew you
Back before I died.
I found my technicolor
The day we first said hi
I lost my world in total
The day you said goodbye.
I don’t know how to tell you
Or show you how I feel
But my love will last forever
With my heart behind the wheel.
I’ll wait for you forever
Patiently holding time
You’re worth every second
I wait alone to find
I hope you know I’m always here
And you’re always on my mind.
The distance, it is blinding
To the true extent of love.
A friend we know just told me
When trying to calm my mind
‘‘I’m sure she knew how much you loved her
Even when you didn’t:couldn’t show it’’
I hope he was right
Though I’m not sure you do
I believe at you knew at one point
But you can’t trust that it didn’t change.
Finally, I understand
If we ever start anew
The extent of love I want to show
Given the chance of loving you.

I don’t think the person will ever see this that I wish I could tell all this too but I’ve buried it here, so maybe will. I scrapped an old poem to put this one back in time - Written 2025.

#life #fate

Labhrás Dec 2018

A walk in the night

Alone,
A walk in the night
Cool, calm, solitary.

Darkness as I walk,
The cool night air
Envelops, absorbs.

My mind drifts,
I become the darkness
My feet lift from the ground.

Drifting in a starless night,
Wishing to disappear
As does the darkness at dawn.

Suddenly pulled to earth,
A car drives by.
Then, once again

Alone, in the darkness I walk.
Alone, with the drifting of my mind.
Alone, in cold air and black night.

Partially drafted on a walk a few years ago, finally completed I think. First attempt at this. Feedback warmly welcome!

#alone #night #walk

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