I ever loved one man
The one that I thought
was The One

He broke my heart
and crashed my soul
He leave me hanging,
To the pleace I've never known

Five years had past
But the hatred still with me,
The unaswered questions
Still, bothering me.

I know I'm young enough to say
But in my heart I know
His my ONE THAT GOT AWAY.

I dream of a world, So reachable.
Time passed by, reality kicks in.
What do you think happened
to the dream I'm dreaming ?

What crazy world are we living in?
guns everywhere,
killing anywhere,
Change? Is it really coming?

I met few good people,
or Pretending to be one.
What's so true about this world?
Is it really worth living in?

' How are you ? '

" STILL ALIVE "

Not with dramas and my silly emotions
Here I am with my friend's laptop on
Writing you guys some poem
Out of happiness not some sadness .

Please ..

Give me a reason to start over

To give life a second chance

To love myself even more

Because I already lost myself

When I chose to love you.

The nights never end.
To a teenager's having fun

But still it never end
To a broken girl I am .

I don't know how to live anymore.

Dark, Dark, Dark

I'm all alone in the dark

Can someone shed some light,

To my very dark life?

I saw you with another man
I heard you talking to someone

I've mastered the act of silent crying
For I'm doing it quite sometime

Do you know how it hurts?
Seeing you with someone else

But I guess I'm that martyr in disguise
Coz' I'm still loving you time to time.

Looking at you
Is like looking to my future
I can see it so clearly
But still unpredictable.

Selfish me as always
I badly want you back
If time is all I need
I'll cry a blood for it

Maybe this is wishful thinking
That you smiling back to me
But probably mindless dreaming
That me holding you again

I don't know if you already knew
If there's anything I can do
No question asks
I will do it for you

No RMT, PhD or MD can replaced
A title God entitled me to be
As ' The Grand Daughter ' to you
As I will always be

Numb,
Hurt,
I don't know what to feel
All I know is that I'm in pain for real

Starbucks be like mermaid
Mermaid who looks like maid
I don't know what to say
It is their logo anyway

I guess it's just a dream
No you, no me
But Is it bad to dream?  
That maybe someday
Me and you be together again?

Every time I go to school
Is like me finding my soul

They say learning is great
But why am I losing myself?

Going to school will defined your future
But it's not the future that I envisioned.

I can shout it to the world
I hate school! I hate school!

But the funny thing is
I hate myself even more

Why do I hate school that much?
Am I still normal or not?