I wish my happiness
Was not a lie
I wish my family
Would realize how much I try
To be who they want
             To live how they want
                       To achieve what they want
But I am not him
And I am not them
I am not her
And I am not you

I am no one
N o t h i n g

So until I find who I am
Ill float through life
Looking
Hoping
Wishing
For
    A Sign
        A whisper
                 A G  l  i m  m  e  r

Of who I can b e

Wake up
School
Homework
Repeat

Wake up
School
Homework
R e p e a t

An endless cycle
Of mind numbing work
Chipping away at my brain
The stress of failing
The only thing moving the pencil on my page

Type type type
This screen is giving me a migraine
My eyes are drooping
My fingers are aching

But I cant fall asleep
I must stay awake
I have 3 essays due
Plus a math test to retake

Swimming in a sea of candy colored dreams
Drowning in my sleep
Colors swirl around me
The light in me is fading

I try to breathe
But to no avail
And with horror I realize
This is the end of my tale

The very thing that brought me joy
Is slowly chipping me away
Filling my lungs
Leaving me to decay

I flail and kick
Trying to swim
Towards the surface
As my vision starts to dim

My fingers graze the surface
I can see the sun
I'm almost there
I've almost won

Suddenly im pulled down
Deep into the depths
Dark spots clouding my vision
With candy colored dreams as my only company

The title of my story
Has yet to be written
Staring at the screen
Trying to make the words come to me

All to no avail
I just sit
And continue to fail
Wondering hopelessly
If the words have run out

Type and erase
Type and erase
I've built up a rhythm
No inspiration can replace

Type and erase
Type and erase
I am hopelessly stuck
In this null space