I've always wondered for whom do you smile for
The very smile that I can't simply resist
The one smile that brightens me to my very core
One of the million reasons why I still persist
I feel blessed to see that smile of yours
The one that brightens my day like non-before
The one that keeps me far from insane
The one that keeps me far from a cane
I've wondered why you're always so close
and yet you're always been so far
It's like you're so near, just as near to my nose
and yet so distant just like a small star

I've done everything in my power
and here, I put my hands up high
surrendering to to you all that I can offer
for my head can't be held up tight

Your love for him, I cannot bother
for this is what you want
My words, my actions cannot reach you
and blood, tears and sweat seem not enough

Here I confess that my lungs have been damaged
my heart has palpitated all that it could
Just so that I could put a smile on your face
and not bother you as I should

I've done everything in my power
and yet.. I cannot be "The One"
I ask, do you see nothing in me?
do you see a tombstone for me?

I have been there in the times
that you have suffered
that you wept and grieved in lost love
in the times that you lost hope

I have been there in the times
that you have smiled
that you smirked and laughed in gained memory
in the times that you gained hope

Here, I realize that.. I will never be enough
my words, my actions, my soul
they will never reach you
they will never meet you

Here I am once again
looking at love with my bare eyes
Here I am once again
for all that is left of me

A piece of my mind, my heart
my love and broken soul
whatever was left that
you haven't taken from me
and what I have not given you

I put up my hands up high
knees on the floor
eyes drenched with tears
and I tell all the stars my wish for you
--- --- --- --- --- --- --- --- --- --- --- --- ---
I wish you sunshine after the rain
All the rest after the pain
I wish you a comfy bed and tea
that tastes beyond your wildest dreams

I wish you health and strength
a good morning and beautiful sunrise
a safe journey home and warm cloudy skies
that makes funny shapes as the light enters your eyes

I wish you all the happiness that the world could offer
or at least, a wonderful taste
of the happiness you have given me
because I wasn't enough to make you feel that

Haha, my wish for you
All I wish for you is love

There's fine line between the
"Oh, he's so nice.. and sweet, and caring"
and the
"Oh, he's just a really nice guy"
...
Nice Guys
I was referring to the latter one
The ones that are generally nice
They'd help anyone, anything
Not necessarily smart, but usually comes with it
They're the "friend that you trust a lot" kind of people
They're usually remembered by the "nice" things that they do
Sadly, they're really underrated when they're not attractive to people
It's the sad truth

When they're in love with you..
They try their best to make you happy
Whether it's a simple gift, or gesture
Know that they have your happiness in mind with the best intentions
They're not nice for nothing
They'll be there when you cry or.. have asthma attacks
They'll try their best to make you smile
and make you feel better about yourself
and they do their best to make you believe that you are beautiful,
even if you don't believe them
They'll try to convince you
on how much they love you,
not just with words but with actions as well
You know, they might not even tell you they love you just yet
Cause they're too preoccupied thinking about you and how you are
(the state of your well being)
They'd think about you more than you'd think about yourself

When you'd ask for space, they'll give you space
just because you asked them to
Know that when you do have that space
They'll still think about you and your wellbeing
They understand
and if they don't, they want to understand you, and they'll try their best to.

When you find one, please do your best
your very-to-the-utmost-extent best
to keep him nice
even if you don't like him
cause itches are the reason why
nice guys turn to the dark side

Cause I've heard that nice guys are in
demand.. and yet so hard to produce

I felt a hug so warm
then on my cheek, a kiss
I felt no harm
cause it's from a person I'll miss
I look back and see
her most beautiful smile
Oh, how lucky of me
to see it for a while
She whispered unto my ear
The four words I'm dying to hear
She said "I love you, dear"
In a voice so clear
and then
...
*I woke up

Today, I pray for an angel's decent
     to guide you with it's all great consent
Today I pray for a happier day
     to make you fullfilled, happy and gay
I pray to God to give you my happiness
     to make you feel better and forget your sadness
Do not be sad if you see my frowned face
     I prayed for you, that is the case