My body is a cage.
This broken mortal frame
Grasps onto air and lies
As it falls and fails to try.
I morph its ugly worthlessness
With personality and fitness
To break my ribs and then to
Cause fat to redistribute.
My body is a cage,
And its broken, warped frame
Will never, ever cease to be
Something that disgusts me.

Oh, {deadname},

You're my beautiful daughter.
I know you're only lying.
You'll never, ever be a boy
No matter how long you keep trying.

Give up on transitioning.
Your mind has been poisoned.
The media has consumed you-
All the lies eating their way in.

Finally, you are my precious baby girl.
You're very smart, and you know that.
Don't think you're a boy- you're not.
You should put on your smiling mask

Until you're not sick anymore,

-Your loving mother

My mom always tells me that being positivity is a choice
But it’s not like I get up in the morning and want to hate myself
No one wants to wake up and immediately think of death
No one wants to go through the day with barely enough motivation to stand
No one wants to get home from school and cry for hours
It’s not like I want to be up all night having flashbacks and anxiety attacks
But guess what mom?
That just how my life is!
And there’s nothing you can do to help me
I’m a lost cause
So just let me give up
Please
Just please

Never sure if I'm alive anymore
Seems I'm lost in a void
Desperately clinging to the people I love
Calling them in the middle of the night
My girlfriend must be sick of the
Desperate reaching for her hand
As we start to walk into the crowd

I have no clue what to do anymore. Cause I have lost everybody and they don't want to hear what I have to say and that does hurt.

I guess I have no purpose anymore and I care about everyone but I don't think they do, so yeah this my life and I am living it. although I wish I had just one person to talk to but I
have lost all of that and I can't see my life doing any better than it is now.