I shoot up with the thoughts of you
I smoke to your embrace
You are a drug
My addiction
You are the thing I need
You keep giving me signs
And I hope that you'll stay
But I know you never will

Get me out of this place
This so-called "home"
This place where I'm pinned with all these accusations
Away from this oh so righteous step father
Who always says that I am selfish
Exclaims that I'm going nowhere
The man who calls me worthless and irresponsible
And speaks as if he's so much better
He's only where he is
Due to the adopted father
Who just happened to be wealthy
Paid for all his wants and needs
And created this thing before me

For some reason your words anger me
So much it's driving me insane
You argue with the same old things
Thinking to yourself that you are right
But soon enough you'll realize
That I was worth keeping around
Because once I leave
I'll cut all ties
To this ****** so-called "home".

I get these moments of clarity
Moments when I realize
That in the end I may be ok
Moments when I realize
Maybe someday she'll be mine
And for now
All I can do is write
So I've imbued my heart in my words
If she reads them
Well I hope she feels the beating in every verse
Im sure she has moments too
When she stops and wonders
If it'd be better if it was me instead of him
If maybe there was a mistake
Or if she even feels for me
So I guess in the end
Everyone has there moments, right ?

I sing to the moon
Hoping that you hear me
Like a wolf without a pack
You invade my thoughts
Live in my dreams
So I'm cracked up on caffeine
Trying not to sleep
Since I can't stand to see you, unless its real.
You're my insomnia
*Keeping me awake at night

I woke up this morning
And stared at the news
They said it was 2014
But to me its 2010
I am living in the past
Stuck in black and white

There's dust on these old emotions
They've been caged for so long
Can't tell if they're still broken
Since there's plenty of times I've been wronged
Not saying that I'm innocent
Or that I'm the most righteous of them all
But you're the one who said you loved me
And notice now that I am gone?

Everything you said seems to have gotten you nowhere
You still sulk and cheat
Like its getting you somewhere
I may have just been that easy guy
But at least take my advice
While you tell me that I'm worthless
You also give me a reason to write.