Why am I here
What is my purpose

I thought this feeling of unimportance would dwindle after reaching adulthood

But, now it's been 5 years and I still cant stand being "here"

When does it get better
When do things stop hurting

When do the people I cherish care to stick around.

When do "friends" become friends.

These are the
darker days
Highlights have turned
into grays
Teardrops stain my
pillowcase
Maybe I'm not
thinking straight

But I dont want to be here
My mind is digging deeper
This pit is inescapable
I'm falling down an endless hole.

You're somewhat like a drug,
When I'm with you, theres a rush.
But every time we part ways,
I'm not left with very much.
This aching in my chest,
It's too hard to explain.
This pain filling my head,
Am I going insane ?

You keep calling me you're friend,
You keep saying that we're close.
Yet, you seem so distant,
So foreign.
You're just a lingering ghost.

My minds screaming I'm terrible
You're saying I'm unbearable
Alone again, my mind is dead.
What just happened here ?

I was holding on, just by a string
but you came and you pulled me up.
We laughed, you smiled
But then you wept
as you pushed me, off again.

You're feeling down
and it seems I just can't help.
I'm losing my mind
and this silence, how it melts
through my head, through my heart.
Sanity slipping away.
I'm hoping that you reach out your arm
before we fall too far
too far from each other
too far to save.

I was on the verge,
on the edge of it all
Standing at the cliff,
ready to fall.
But you've lulled me away
You've convinced me to stay.
I won't mind as long
as I can see your beautiful face.