We spent hours in a room
No windows and no door,
Carving with rusty knives
And begging for more.
The mouths we created
Ghosts on our pale arms,
Vomited up dark secrets
Red as fire alarms.
We spent those days alone
Together in heart,
Now we walk crowded streets
With ghosts on our arms.

I feel so confused.
The life I grounded myself in,
The life I dreamed of,
Crumbles beneath me.

Outcast and rejected,
Your heart carved in stone.
Your words an infection,
Spilling poison on the bone.
Your lips play a melody of malice,
Your smile is like a grave.
The smell of death on your breath,
Like a stinking wave.

You
Sick
Sick
Sick,

You
Sick
Sick
Sick,

You
Sick
Man.

F­ingers like razors,
Extended from bloodied hands.
Your laughter stinks of cruel intent,
Spattering on the sand.
Your body is a temple,
Singing songs of premeditated ******.
Your tongue is weapon
Of deceit disguised as valor.

You
Sick
Sick
Sick.

You
Sick
Man.

If only I could tell you,
I love you so dearly,
I'm afraid of letting you close,
I live so fearfully.
I know I'm breaking you up,
I'm killing you inside,
I would absorb your love,
But I'm scared I'll fly.

The house is quiet,
But I'm awake.
The floors creak
The house sighs
And opens its eyes.

Brown eyes
                    Sweet smile
                                         Laughter unending
                                                                           Conflicting me
                                                                                                     Causing pain.

My feet are muddy
From trudging through this rut.
Day in and day out
The same old things twisting in my guts.
It would be so easy
To just give in or give up.
But there is hope inside me,
A small spark and that's enough.
I'll clean off this dirt
And pull myself out of here.
Brand new, I want to live,
I will live.

The dark unveils in this new place,
A different scene; always the same face.
Creeping from underneath the door
It drags itself across my floor.
Seething, teething, mewling mass,
It raises up and cracks the glass.
The sun reaches out relieving grace
Out onto its cold, familiar face.

Standing at the gates,
His eyes on his hands.
Virgil is waiting,
For Dante to take a stand.
The keeper with a key,
The the lock of this Hell.
Dante must break on through,
To catch his maiden that fell.

I look at you,
Little fingers,
Little toes.
You've got life,
My eyes,
My nose.
You have a future,
Bright days,
All sunshine.
You have family,
Just me,
That's fine.

Your heartbeat's a flutter,
Leaves on the breeze.
Skipping along merrily,
Dodging the freeze.
It's fragile and sensitive,
Held in my hands.
For me to warm and foster,
And plant in the sands.
Your heartbeat will grow there,
Become something strong.
Thumping with life and love,
Right where you belong.

Some days I wish he was you,
You were the one I hardly knew.
We spent a summer growing,
Affection there but barely showing.
I grew to miss you more every day,
Cursing my misfortune as you went away.
On certain days I swear he could be you,
Though I know it could never be true.
Now I see that our short love was grim,
Because on some days I wished that you were him.

Do you remember drawing pictures in the stars?
We once knew who we were, who we are.
But memories disappear; this much is true,
They will leave me behind, just like you.

My heart is elated
Just from a few hours
Spent stroking your hair,
Your head in my lap.

I'd give the world for a kiss
Like the one read about in books.
A small gift upon the lips,
Just as magical as it looks.
I'd give the world for a moment,
Held still in short film.
The world stopping for a second,
For that, a girl could ****.
I'd give the world for a smile,
Like the ones I've begun to miss.
I've been waiting quite a while
For just a smile and a simple kiss.

We pressed our memories into the sands of summer
Like fragile sand castles against the water.
As the leaves turned red, orange, yellow
The waves crashed and the towers tottered.

The good times faded into seas of amnesia,
Replaced by the shapeless remnants of their beauty.
The trees withered like old men by the shore,
Over broken castles as far as we could see.

Soon the waves began to fade into the water,
And the snow was once again on its way.
We started to rewrite the beautiful summer again
On the dreadful winter's gray.

You are the flower,
I am the soil.
From seed to blossom
I raise you.

You are the masterpiece,
I am the artist.
From paint and canvas
I create you.

You are the poem,
I am the poet.
From thought to words
I write you.

You are the thought,
I am the thinker.
From moment to moment
I ponder you.

You are my world,
And I am yours.
From birth to death
I will love you.

To hear you singing in the kitchen,
Not always in tune,
Not always as quiet as you assume,
Fills my heart with bliss.

Life can’t get much better than this.

To hear you belt out a melody,
Sweet in simplicity,
Heard by the entire city,
It’s the sound of a kiss.

Life can’t get much better than this.

Her hand grows cold in mine,
Dad says it's time to say goodbye.

A soft smile still on her face,
Peace and serenity, she leaves this place.

Solemn faces blend into the crowd,
She falls in slow motion into the ground.

Air grows stale, the sky begins to cry,
I'm still waiting for the sun to shine.

I sacrificed everything for you
And what do I get?
You're pulling away from me,
Putting me out like a cigarette.
Sure, it started out okay,
Just like anything does.
You were happy, affectionate,
I felt it, like a buzz.
But now the buzz is fading fast,
And I fight for your love.
Like a boxer, broken and defeated,
I'm putting down my gloves.

His voice was quivering,
Emotion bubbling in his lungs,
It burst through his lips
And slipped on his tongue.
The melody traveled miles
Just to settle on my ears,
The motivation lay hidden
But the message was clear.
"Far away," he whispered
"So far from home."
My heartbeat echoed
As he sang of being alone.
The songs played on my heartstrings,
Each chord and every line,
From his lips came a song of love,
A love that could be mine.
His song drifted off with perfect pitch,
And he whispered so sincere,
"So far away from home," he said
"You're so far away from me, my Dear."

With your feet in the stars
And your head on the ground,
You've forgotten who you are,
Your shoes planted firmly in the clouds.
Cloud nine has fallen
And crashed into the sea,
Denial is calling,
Forget what it's like to be free.
Your business suit is pressed,
Your shoes spit shined,
Your home life is a mess,
You've forgotten what you've left behind.
Your childhood dreams collect dust
On a shelf in your memory,
Your ability to love, to trust
Has become the enemy.
Stars are burning red
And crashing to the ground,
Surrounding your buried head
And breaking apart your cloud.
The boxes packed away,
All knocked off the shelves.
Memories tattered and frayed,
Along with your sense of self.
Fragile wishes to bring peace,
And brittle desires to be hero,
You followed along with the siege,
You are nothing, a zero.
You push your head to the clouds,
Feet planted somewhere below,
The stars fly up safe and sound,
If they had really fallen, only you know.
The wishes you've ignored
The dreams you through away,
Scattered across your heart,
The illusion ends today.

Dead,
Bubbling
Under the skin.

Scars,
Broken lines
Boiling within.

Fear,
Gasping
Dying today.

Dark
Bravery
Coming out to play.

Hush,
Silenced,
All put to bed.

The scars,
Bravery,
They are all dead.

My past is a fading melody,
A long forgotten song.
The rhythm is nebulous
And the words no longer exist.
Decrepit and chaotic,
My past is symphonic.

Dear you,
I miss you badly.
I tell myself its silly,
I'm just reminiscing,
I'm just seeking escape,
I'm lonely.
But it's true,
I miss you.
What I wouldn't give
To turn back time.
What I wouldn't give
To just stay.
But its too late,
And I'm stuck.
I missed my opportunity
And the door shut,
It locked behind me
Mocking me.
I'll never have you,
I'll never have love
Like we had.
I'm such an idiot,
An idiot who misses you...
Badly.

I don't know you,
Or the hurt you've been through.
I haven't seen your tears,
Or been with you all these years.
I never watched you struggle,
Or listened to your troubles.
I don't know the beat in your chest,
Or how you wish it would rest.
I never felt your pain,
Or that internal rain.
But I know your scars,
They were written in the stars.
Like the ones that riddle my arms,
Such horrible bad luck charms.
I don't even know you,
But I pray that you'll fight through.

You came for me at night,
Sharp teeth bared and glaring,
Dripping poison and snarling,
Eyes bloodshot and protruding.
You took me apart that night,
Soft flesh crumpled and bleeding,
Gaping wounds and bones cracking,
Screams growing faint and wheezing.
You became a monster that night,
Shredding my confidence and laughing,
Pushing hatred upon me and smiling,
Reaching out beyond the mirror and winning.

What was once a great fire,
Dwindles now, an ember.
The rain keeps falling now,
Threatening it forever.

You shield it with your hands,
Hoping to keep it alive.
I'm ready to put it out,
Let that old flame die.

It consumed us in its day,
Engulfing us both in red.
Now it dreams of crackling,
Its days of burning are long dead.

We were once a great fire,
We dwindle now, in doubt.
The rain has fallen
And we are going out.

Daggers on your breath,
You've stabbed me to death.
Injecting poison from your lungs
That danced on your tongue.

No mercy finds me here,
Cowering in secret fear
Of you who were once kind,
But you've left that far behind.

I'm still here for you.
Though I seem so far away,
Think of you every day.

A credit to humanity,
I've lost my insanity.
Like feathers of a bird,
I'm filled with words.
Like ink inside a pen,
I'm flowing once again.
My mind finally free,
I've returned to being me.

You are beautiful.
Your body,
Your face,
Your soul.

You are worth something,
Worth a smile,
Worth a wave,
Worth the world.

You are a wonder,
Your gaze,
Your art,
Your silence.

You are amazing,
Your talent,
Your presence,
Your existence.

Don't forget.
You are beautiful.
You are worth everything.
You are a wonder.
You.
Are.
Amazing.

Who are you?
Masquerading as a boy,
Putting on masks of joy,
Playing me, your human toy.
Who are you?
Clenching hands into fists,
Thrashing out rage in your fits,
Pretending I don't really exist.
Who are you?
Turning all my love away,
Acting like everything's okay,
With nothing left to even say.
Who are you?
You used to be my one,
But you're off thinking you've won,
But, boy, this war has just begun.
Who have you become?
Who are you?

Nights like these
I lie awake.
The thoughts breaking in
More than I can take.
Who have I become?
Have I changed?
The mirror is someone new
Someone deranged.
I've lost all the friends I had,
Pushed away by fear.
Now I'm all alone in the dark,
All alone down here.
Nights like these
I can't sleep.
Haunted by the nightmares
Of demons I keep.
The shadows dance
Ghosts on the wall.
I am taken by them,
Lost in it all.
Nights like these
I wish for an easy end.
A noose around the neck,
An awkward bend.
But I'll tell myself
Life is not an ease.
I'll stay brave
On nights like these.

Your memory is benign,
But it's spreading like cancer.
I'm searching for reasons
And can't find an answer.
Five years have passed away
Since we last said goodbye.
Our love took its final breath,
But now I wonder why.
Your face is a tumor
Growing in my thoughts.
I should cut it out, excise it,
Or so I was taught.
But these images are sweet,
So I will hold on.
Your memories won't **** me,
Only remind me you're gone.

Our time is up and we're packing it away,
The life we built, the life we shared
Stowed in boxes by the end of today.

I know I'll still see you, but it's not the same,
Your arms won't be around me anymore,
Your kisses can't dull this kind of pain.

This ring says together while miles say apart,
How can we live separately even now
When you're so close to my heart.

It's only a year you say, only a small time,
But it feels so much like forever to me,
Forever til you'll again be mine.

Our boxes in the same city, our hearts too,
Our life to be severed by ownership,
But I don't want any of this, I want you.

His smile is easy like the sun rising in the east,
It showers its plains and fields in radiating light.
Wild flowers rise from the ground to bask in his glow,
Turning their faces toward this magnificent sight.
His eyes glisten, windows to this wonderful place,
Through them the marvels of the world beam out.
Towering megaliths of strength exist within him,
Beauty in his world without a shadow of doubt.

You sang for me when we were in love,
Or so I believed you were capable of.
Now your song is no more than ghost,
It feeds off of me still; a reluctant host.
As you faded away it held me still,
Whirling me around til I became ill.
And now that I've moved on it protects,
It holds tight to me and all of my regrets.
Your song whispers to me on the occasion,
It bleeds into my head at night, a beautiful lesion.
Back when your mouth yielded such love
You took pieces of my heart, donning the surgeons glove.
I believed that like your song you were true,
Now I know that this parasite is what was always you.
Just a pretty song played out through a phone,
When I was desperate, sad and so alone.
Though your melody hurts like an imaginary bruise,
You are no longer my love or my muse.

All my ships have sailed,
Now the tides are rising
And I have no life vest.

He paints the sky in diamonds
And paves his ground in money,
His light is made of gold,
His disposition always sunny.

He floods the sea in silver,
Dots the flowers in pearls,
His eyes are brilliant sapphire,
They see the entire world.

He looks past the dusted coal,
His life is made of rubies,
Around him people are rusted,
But he is made with beauty.

A creature among humanity,
Precious child of the sky,
Born with a head full of stars
And bones aching to fly.
Singing a symphony of words,
A language unknown,
Sweet melodies of love and peace,
Of growing up alone.
You live in the Milky Way
With a house made of light,
The shine penetrated darkness,
Only to be seen at night.
Traveler of universes
With a galaxy playground.
Your words darted through space
Until you were found.
They screamed monster
And locked your songs away,
In a wide open cage
You were never saved.
A stranger to humanity,
Your end waited to begin,
You sang a melody of love
And they called you Alien.

I've burned all my bridges,
Lit a match and nursed flames.
Now I'll rise from the ashes,
Make myself a brand new name.
I'm not who I used to be,
None of you knew me anyway.
So without any obstacles
I'll stand taller than ever today.
Sure I'll miss these bridges,
They held such potential.
But they were breaking,
Some condemned by the crumble.
This desolation will be my start,
My chance to move ahead.
Burning bridges for the better,
My past is better off dead.

Your smile brings back memories.
Times were simpler back then,
No ties to keep us down,
No age to make us wise.

I loved the way you forgot to care.
My heart wasn't yours to take,
You took it so gently,
Kept it in a cage.

Now here we are only years later.
My heart never left your cage,
I have ties keeping me down,
My age made me wise.

But here you are still so blissfully free.
My ties burning me so painfully,
I want to just run my fingers
Through your hair.

You used to be my friend
A light in the dark,
You promised til the bitter end,
That day in the park.
Now our names are on a bench
Never to be known,
Our friendship in a trench,
Frozen and alone.
I thought that I knew you,
We were two parts of a whole,
Now I can see through
Your callous, dark soul.
Sure I cry for you,
At least who you were,
But I'll build myself anew,
And forget to remember.

The hole is getting deeper
And I'm falling in.

The depression,
The hopelessness,

Are wolves circling,
Waiting to begin.

The sand is getting higher,
And I'm choking on it.

The silence,
The darkness,

Pulling me deeper
Into this suffocating pit.

My fingers are bleeding
From how I tried to crawl.

I yearn,
I reach desperately,

Escape eludes me still,
I fear I will drown after all.

Butterflies fluttering,
Cheeks reddening,
Heartbeat slowing
And heartbeat increasing.

Happiness spreading,
Feelings conflicting,
Part of me wanting staying,
Every part of me ready to be leaving.

How can it be?
His light upon my face,
Magnifying beauty, grace,
Has returned so easily?

Patching us together lightly,
We've become so fragile.
Ripped apart by the slightest breeze,
We're fighting the wind.
Hope is the only thread left
Holding us together.

Angels of snow
Fall from the sky,
Your little wings wither
Like the last breath of life.
Angels of snow
Crash on the ground,
Buried in the wake of death
More lost than found.
Angels of snow
Burn up in the sun,
Shoot up into the sky
Bullets from natures cruel gun.
Angels of snow
Wait in the sky,
Winter will bring you to life
Let you once again fly.