Hello Daisies

Hello Daisies Apr 2023

Memories
Memories
The key
Memories
Memories
I flee

Meditation
They say
Meditation
Will play
Meditation
Is the way

Yet my memories
Of you
Were my happiest
My memories
Of you
Were the sappiest

Now I die
I die a little
I die a lot
I die from the thought
Of my happiest memory

From start
To finish
the very beginning
Of adolescence
You were there
We were never scared
Together
We shared
Memories
Moments
Golden pictures
Golden snaps
Forever burned
Forever there
Now I'm scared

My memories
Memories
Of you
They have ahold
On me
My memories
Memories of you
Leave me in absolute
Agony

I miss you
I miss them
I miss the feeling
Of adolescence
Of fun
Of freedom
Of hope
Of every single blissful
Moment
In the sky
With you
In the sky
Who knew
We'd fall
Fall so hard
And break
Never to mistake
Healing us together
Again

Memories
Memories of you
I can't meditate
I can't think
Of the past
Unless I go
Too far back
My childhood
My childhood
I stood
Low
I cried
Every night
My childhood
Mostly
A fright

My memories
Memories of you
what I held onto
Now I bleed
I bleed
Without any seed
Of hope
I bleed
I bleed
With a need
I bleed
Onto my knees
On the ground
Without a sound

No one wants to hear it
I don't want to bear it
But my memories
Memories
Of you
We're all I knew
It's how I grew
It's how we flew
Now
On the ground
With no sound
haunting
Flashes of shadows
Creeping into me
What was once bright
Now a scary sight
Now a sad plight
For help

My memories
Memories of you
Haunt me
In my dreams
In my car
From a far
In my house
In my bed
In every tear
I shed
Please please
I pled

I let it be now
I let it hurt
Let it sting
It isn't leaving
You were more then everything
Now it's mud on the ground
Now it's death with no sound
It's broken bones
And ripped veins
Its falling and reaching up
But no one's there
Falling into
Throw up

Those are my memories
Memories now
My memories
Memories
Of you

My memories
Hurt
Me
Now
And forever

Memories
...
Now and forever

#memories #pain #sad

Hello Daisies Apr 2023

Twisted home

I need
I need
I need
To believe
In something
Myself
Someone
Above

I need
I need
Insanity
Despair
Crazy
I need
To grow a pair

I need air
I need despair
Despair
Despair
It is my air

I understand
I understand
Why
They stay
Why they won't go away
Even when
Beaten and swayed
Cheated
And laid
I understand

Once you leave
Once you go
There's no place
No place
To call home

It was broken
It was bruised
it was you
It was you

Now what to do
What to do?

Go back
Go back
Turn your back

Leaving isn't sunshine
Leaving isn't forever happy
Leaving is one moment
One decision
One moment of truth
Realization

Realization fades
Realization goes gray
You begin
To sway
You begin to say

I want to go
I want to go back
I want it again

I want despair
I want crazy
I need my air
I can't grow a pair
I can't
I can't
I can't believe in
Myself
I can't believe in
Hope

I can't
I can't
I need crazy
I need stress
I need comfort
Nothing less
I need money
I need home
I need battered and bruised
I need to be used
It was you
It was you
I was too good to you
You were bad to me
It's my epiphany
I need
To be
Abused
I need you
To hurt me again
I need to be over used
Like an inkless pen
It was my purpose
My purpose
My purpose
I'm gone
Gone
I'm gone
nowhere
I'm lost
Lost
Lost
In this frost
Frost less fire
Frost less rage
I'm in a cage
I called freedom
We never have freedom

Breaking free
Is only happy
For a moment
Then it settles in
Under ur skin
You miss it
You miss them
The pain
The darkness
Was comfort
Even the mess
Was a silk dress
On your skin
Rather then sinking
In
Lost-depression
Healing
Healing
Healing
It's dealing
With the
Crazy
With the
Lazy
With the
Lost
Hopeless
Gutless
Breathing
Yearning
Draining
Spraining
My back
To keep track
And not
Run back
To you
Your arms
Twisting
Twisting
Twisting
My neck
Abrasions
All over
Just check
I liked it
I'm a wreck
A wreck
Without a ship
A wreck
Dusted into sea
A wreck
Meant to be
Going going
Fastly
Into
Insanity
A wreck
Trying to heal
Is like a ship
Trying to fly
It's not real

Let me wreck
Let me wreck
Let me crash
Back into you
Twist my neck
Twist my arms
Drown me again
So I can feel

The warmth
Of
Home

Hello Daisies Mar 2023

Obsessed with the sound

You tore out my heart
laying on the ground
Finally I hear it's sound
Pa dum pa dum
I'm obsessed with this sound
Pa dum pa dum
Pa dum
Pa dum

You tore me apart
I'm listing to my heart
All I hear is this sound
Sounds of broken magic
Sounds of something tragic
Pa dum pa dum ssss

Obsessed with such beauty
Obsessed with the sweet romance
Obsessed with the brisk October
With the warm summer nights
Waiting in lines
Reaching the destination
Seeing the stars
Falling apart
Falling
Onto my own heart
Pa dum pa dum

You tore my heart out
Laying on the ground
I'm obsessed with it's sound
Pa dum pa dum

All I hear
All I swear
It's all I hear
It's all I care
About
Your sound
Mini m&Ms
Laying on the playground
Mini M&Ms
Don't usually have a sound
When you see them
I can hear them
Pa dum pa dum
We always shared them
Pa dum pa dum

We shared many things
Secrets, truths, heartbreak
Laughter love
Adventure
We shared many
Many of these
Can you believe
I could ever let it go
Let this sound go
Pa dum pa dum

I can finally hear it again
Thank you my beloved friend
You tore my heart out
The one I thought I lost
With you in the war
Or maybe from before
Now I feel the magic
Of every moment of course
I cherish how it hurts
...hurts
It hurts ....it hurts so
Pa dum pa dum pa DUMPADUMPADUMDDUMDUMDOOOMDOOMDOOM

I cherish it so
Thank you for this pain
I dance in the blood
Of the bleeding of vein
On the ground
I dance
On the ground
To the sound
Of my torn out heart
I relish every part
From finish to start
Repeating
Cycling
through me
Constantly
I dance
I...
Dance
As I paint my face red
With every shade
Every piece of led
You ever fed
Me
I can taste it
I can hear it
The sound
Of the trains
Pa dum pa dum

You tore my heart out
On the ground
I am obsessed with the sound
Pa dum pa dum
The sound of trains at night
The sound of laughing and feeling alright
The sound...of inner bliss
And naivety over this
I can hear the sound
Of my heart again
Having it ripped open
I am obsessed with the ****** romance
Of feeling pain
It's better then nothing
So they say
I wish there was another way
To hear
The sound of my heart
Then having it torn apart
Laying on the ground
Pa dum pa dum
Watching it bleed out
With every
Time
I
See
Your face
Every
Time
I
See
That place
Every
Pa dum
Pa dum
Time I see the stars
Pa dum pa dum
Every
Time
I
Remember
Your
Heart
Pa dum pa dum
Every
Time ...
Every
Time
I
...pa dum pa dum
Every
Time
I
Wish
We weren't apart
Pa dum pa dum
It loses more
Blood
The sound is slowly
Mud
Until I learn to erase
Your disgrace
Until I learn
To face
My obsession
With my lost
Possession
It'll die
And the sound will go

Until then
This is all I know
To hold onto
To feel

You tore out my heart
On the ground
I'm obsessed with the sound
...pa dum pa dum
Pa...ssssss

You've won again
My once beloved friend

Hello Daisies Mar 2023

Find me

I found myself in you
I lost myself in you
The greatest parts of me
Lost in the cavalry
Will I ever know her
  Again
Will I ever show her
To a new friend

I play pretend
That getting over you
Is possible
That doing the right thing
Being responsible
Is better
Then having you
Forever

We were infinite
We were immeasurable
We were an eternity
We were
Beautiful
Now we're gone
Now we don't belong
I don't belong
I'm a void
I'm a toy
Of the world
Toss me around
I'm not a girl
I'm not even sure
If I'm alive anymore

We were amazing
We were brilliant
We were exhilarating
We were awe inspiring
We were
    Happy

A year has came
A year has left
I'm stuck in this mess
Frozen in time
Of you're left over crimes

Take me back
Help me find myself
Dust off the shelf
Of my misery
Let me see my history
In light again
I don't wanna play pretend

I want to be me
I want to be free
I want to be funny
And sweet like honey
Like we were
Where is the cure
Of the obscure
Void
I'm in.

I've always been sad
I've always had issues
We held them together
Made them better
Now I can't breathe
In any weather
I'm weaker
Then any feather

We were stronger then leather
I wore your jacket out
I tried to sew it together
Make it look better
Inside I could tell
It wouldn't last
Not in this harsh weather
It'll come undone
I couldn't except that never ever
Let me try to sew it better
Please please
Let me try
...let me
Try
Better
Please

We were young
We were red and gold
We were queens
We were sky high
We were .. .
     Epic

We were
We were
We were
I need to accept those words
I'm getting better
But I can't get myself together
I was happy
I was beautiful
I was eternity
I was
... Me
Now I'm nobody
Now I'm lost
Now I'm a void
No joy
No life
No hope
Only isolation
Only an empty
Train station
Eternally hoping
I'll see u again
Coming of the train
Running back to me
Holding eachother together
Sewing our ripped up holes
Back to warmth again
Seeing myself in your eyes
My lonely friend

I want to find me
Exit the void
I want to find
Happy
Without you
I want to find
Infinite
I want to find
...life
Again

#lost #sad

Hello Daisies Mar 2023

Bless be the snow

Sometimes in the darknest of days
Snow may fall
Like the biggest
Surprise
On my face

I will dance
By myself
I will feel the magic
Within oneself
I will shine like never before
I will remember my glitter
From days before

You don't always need
Someone
To shine
You don't always need
Someone
To dance at night
You can have your own magic

Bless be the snow
Coming to me
With a glow
Bless be your love
From above
I can dance again
I can feel the brisk
Again
The magic
In my pen
The extra skip
In my step
The snow
On my breath

Bless be this dance
Bless be
This chance

#happy #snow

Hello Daisies Mar 2023

Carry it

Carry it
Carry it
Carry the pain

I wrote you a letter
I watched it burn
I drowned it
I drown you
Now it's your turn
You've been drowning
Me
For so long
No more,
Atlas I can hear
my own song
I watch you drown
I can finally
Calm
Down

I can finally
Carry it
The pain
Will never go
This I know
I can carry it
With me as I go
Into the sun
I was never much a fan
As I let it in
I can feel it in my skin
I can
Carry it
Within

I wrote you a letter
I watched it drown
It came back up
From the ground
It came back to me
I turned around
Don't look back
Whispered to me
I took the hands
Of my future
To be
I walked away
Never again
I say

Never again
Let myself drown
Never again
Lose my own sound
I hope
I pray
Never again
To feel that way
I will carry it
Every day
I will carry myself
To a better place

I wrote you that letter
With all my heart
I drowned you
Without a second thought
Goodbye
And good riddance
I am free
I am free
I am free
To carry it
To be me
I am free
Of drowning
In your guidance
I am free
Of your tyranny
Goodbye
And
Hello
To me
Again
I'm my new
Beloved friend
❤️

#heartbreak #healing

Hello Daisies Mar 2023

Dollar general

I saw two girls
Laughing and shopping
At a dollar general
It reminded me
When I wasn't so
Miserable

When I had friends
To buy snacks with
When every day
Wasn't consumed with
Trying to be better
Trying to be skinny
Hating myself
Feeling lonely
Dark
Cold

I miss that laughter
I miss those days
Together
Any weather
We were warm
Eating snacks
Telling eachother
Random
Facts
Buying crazy
Toys
Laughing
About
Boys

Those were the days
Now I sit in a cube
Isolated alone
In my cold room
In my cold mind
Focusing on
Whatever the ****
The grind
Is
That's all I do
Isolated
In
My
Cold cube