Hello Daisies

Hello Daisies Feb 2023

Surreal

How long can I pretend
To feel
To heal
What's real ?
I'm lost
∆°In the surreal ∆°
The art is false
The grass is grey
I'm a needle
In hay
Nobody's looking
Lost forever

Hello Daisies Feb 2023

a letter to burn

I wrote you a letter
To burn and feel better
I cried as my pen
died
Asking myself why
I can't burn this
I can't let this go

I can't
I can't
I can't let this ******* go

I wrote you a letter
Of all the hurt you've done
everything you did wrong
the pain in my lungs
I wrote you a letter
To Help me move on
it just held me again
Stung
With my own pen

You have a way
everything you say
In my mind
my own fault
my heart
an empty vault
Never you to blame
You hold no shame

I want to let you go
I want to break free
Of this dramatic show
I want to feel free
Of the tyranny
You have over me

That's why
I wrote you a letter
Saying goodbye
I wrote you a letter
Telling you I cried
I wrote you this letter
So you may die
From my life
I wrote you a letter
To say I love you
Most of all
I wrote you a letter
To let go of you

Burn you
To ashes
I fell down ...
... Like a boat,
In the ocean crashes
Waves bellowed over me
Screaming into my ears
Drowning me with fears

I can't burn something drowning
In water
I can't burn something
I hold as a flower
Blooming in the pain
Of my tears
I hold it so dear

I can't
I can't
I can't let this ******* go

I can't ignite the flames
I can't release the ink
I harbour it forever
In every song
Every sky
Every moon lit night
Every sign
I pass by
Every new York building
In the sky

Every ..
train
Late at night
Every group of friends
I pass by
Every joke
Or tear
I cry
Every little thing
I can't seem to burn
No matter how many
New bridges I turn

But

I wrote you this letter to say goodbye
I know deep inside
You're gone
So I wrote you this letter
To finally move on
The only next step

... burn my whole ******* house down

Hello Daisies Feb 2023

******* *****

It ***** to lose the one
The one person who made the stars
More magical then they already are

The one person
You could lay on the road with
Talk and bond your soul with
The one person you were forever with

A sister
A friend
A soulmate
A magical date

It really *****
So ******* much
Who will I look up with?
To see the stars at night

They feel dull to me now
They feel wrong to me now
I feel only sad
And lonely
When I look above
It'll never be
What it once was

You and me
Sharing our hearts
On a cold open road
Laying there like crazy nuts
Laughing and singing
Our minds were ringing
Of joy
being content
Of magic
So potent

Now it's gone
Your touch
Our love
The friendship
Everything it was

It really *****
To lose all that
It really really ******* *****
To remember that
It can never be what it was

Now everytime I look above
I feel my heart being torn
Apart
Now I can only feel blue
When I look at the pale moon
: (

Hello Daisies Feb 2023

February air

I feel the February air
But I don't care
I can't care
You seem to be everywhere

You are all of new York
You are all of my walls
You are all of my parts
You
... You
Are
Or were
All of me
Now you are just one thing
February air

You run through me
Without a care
You blare your angst
You remind me of the pain
Of leaving me at the door way
Of pushing our friendship away
Every day

You remind me
Of running into your arms
Of corn and fields of farms
Of surprises in train stations
Of birthdays in New York
Laughter in a swimming pool
Walmart shopping at midnight
And bagel bites candle lights
But most of all
You always remind me
Of February air
The breeze I once loved
Now dead and mud
Cold through the bone
No brisk breeze
Just frigid freeze

You are the seasonal depression
But every month now it seems
There is no end
To February
My very being
It'll fade
The autumn will come again
One day
I know it
I hope it
I need it
For I cannot breathe
For the rest of my life
In
February air

Hello Daisies Dec 2022

Another sad song

When will I stop associating every sad song
With the way we no longer get along
The way you strung me along
The way you
You broke
And tore me apart
Ripped open my heart
Like an empty pond
Was once beautiful
Now hard to look upon

  When
Can I listen again
To my favorite notes
Without feeling my heart


                                    °In my throat°

Hello Daisies Dec 2022

My love

When I was younger
I would lie awake
Crying
Praying
The other side of the bed wouldn't be empty
One day
Maybe someday

I never imagined
I had no clue
I only dreamt
Of someone like you

I don't think you know
Despite your joking ego
That you're beautiful
Inside and out
Not a single doubt

You're welcoming and true
You're hardworking and unapologetically you
You're the sweet warm brew
That brightens up my blue

I love the kindness you have
I love the way you laugh
I love being with you in a bath
And the way you make me laugh

I never for a second thought
That such a gift would be brought
Into this sad cold world
But here you our
With every single flaw
You own it
You flaunt it
I love you to pieces and bits!

You're like the snow
I waited so long for you to show
you came along
My heart started to grow
The crystals and cold
The icy white snow
You are a breath of cold wind
Blowing on my face
Making me feel this is my place
My home
My joy
My happiness
Maybe others don't understand
But I know you are one hell of a man!

I love you

Duh!

#love #cute #sweet #heartfelt

Hello Daisies Nov 2022

A clean goodbye

I had another dream about you
All I recall is your face
Taunting me
Hurting me
Again and again
After all
That's all it takes

But the lyrics I heard
The music in my head
When I woke in my bed
Singing
Ringing
Piercing

They were telling me
To be clean
Let the rain
Drain away
All of you

I replayed all of us
I played the song
I heard for so long
And saw you
it hurt
Nothing unusual
Pain came flooding in
Always punctual

In my heart
I knew
It's been time
For awhile
Telling myself
I'm not strong enough
Give me more time
More time to lie
More time to cry
For time to rhyme
Not today
Not tomorrow
Not my future
I need to mature

Let this go
Take this step
Move forward
Away from you
I'll never forget everything
Not one thing
But I can let some pain go
Love the snow
Again
not let you
Ruin
Everything

Her lyrics sang to me
Be clean
Let the rain come
The pain may stay
But I can't keep harboring it
Like an old necklace
Left over from a dead relative

I can't keep it
I must discard you
You're a broken necklace
That keeps stabbing me
You're not even here
But you are controlling my life
Let me be clean

I finally
Finally
Finally
Took the step
Took control
I will not keep bleeding
On everything
And everyone around me
I will not bleed out
And become nothing
But your leftovers
I will clean the broken glass
The scars will never fully heal
But I can stop counting them
Every morning
And night
I can let them close
And sleep tight
I can remember you
In some kind of light
That isn't hatred
Or pain
Holding onto this necklace
Has no gain
Just shards
I must throw away
I must clean
The bleeding
Finally
Finally
It's a step
Maybe a small one
Maybe a long one
It took time
But it's a step forward
I can wash the blood soaked stains
I can clear my brain
I can sleep peacefully again
Saying goodbye
This time even on the inside

Goodbye
With real meaning
Goodbye
We are no longer friends
Goodbye
It's been everything
Goodbye
Forever and it's okay
Goodbye
I had a hell of a time

...Goodbye
I'll miss you my friend.
This is the end.

Goodbye Bree, so I can be free

Goodbye for eternity.