When we come face to face
I'm mumble mouthed for sure
From all the broken memories
Laying in pieces on the floor

When you draw your excuses
I still cannot point the blame
In the end it's all my fault
Every ounce of pain

I look you in the eyes
And..my words seem to falter
You cry for my forgiveness
But that cannot be altered

I counted days alone
I spent cleaning out my conscious
Now you blow in wrecklessly
And all I feel is nausious

I can see the hurt
You truly do regret..
But that is not enough
To ever make me forget

The way you chose to end it
Threw my heart on the floor
Laughed and prodded my emotions
Until I couldn't take it anymore

It took me to move
A thousand miles away
So I could finally escape
These awful games you play

So please do me a favor
Hear the words I speak
For they are far more kind
Than the ones you left for me..

You'll always be in my heart
My first everything was you
You have my forgiveness
But we cannot start anew

I'll love you forever
But your love is not true
Today's the day you love me..
And the day I cannot love you.

Love isn't just to be said
for love can not be put in words
i have fallen for you
and for that
you have my heart and soul
and i know i have yours
but how can i tell you
i love you?
when there's no good way to say it
you are the mickey to my mini
the Donald to my daisy
the calm to my crazy
and for this
i know how to say i love you
i will be there for you to infinity and beyond"

Nothing feels like home
a whole new world
when you close the door
and lay down on the carpet
staring at an empty wall
wish for it to break the silence
and you drown yourself in salt
and suffocate yourself with a pillow

Days and years may pass
but you are still strong in your fortress
nobody can breach the walls
you are alone in eternal darkness
emptiness tied your tongue
and mercy have you blinded
sill nobody noticed you are gone
nobody will notice when you die here.

You're a memory from my past
trying to invade my future

only if i could
even Just for a while

to see that curve in that face
even just for a while

to hold that tiny little finger
even just for a while

to hear that georgeous laugh
even just for a while

but now i'm going away
to chase my rainbow
just for a while

maybe my "While" is overtaken
i hear the wind, i listen to the rain
now i must forget
now i must release
and now i've succeed to let it go.
just for a while...

I know that you are always there
I love to think about the things we share
Sad or happy, it doesn't matter
You pick up my heart when it lay shattered
May we stay friends for many moons
And our connection remain immune

Some days we are but noise
beneath a silent sky,
Waiting and wanting to be heard,
The creek of an old machine still proving it's worth,
The light of a dying star illuminating the faces of people we love,
Framed, perpetually, by the world.



(Inspired by the Photography of Clive  Roughley)

sometimes i feel like i'm in the ocean
and it's okay
because i know how to swim

but then i realize
even the best swimmers
sometimes need a break

and i'm not the best
not by a long shot

your hands grow
heavy in the half light
i liked the way
the passing silence
of the hours
curled shadows
across the lines
of your face

i don't remember
the sound
of your voice anymore
just the soft
sighing rattle
of your chest
as the sun
slowly shapes
its fingers,
my coffee
growing colder
on the kitchen table