"As long as I
don't lose you
I am ok"

Those words will forever
be embedded in my brain,
because you still left me
what a shame.

freedom
that’s what I wanted when I thought about being “an adult”
but here i am fighting these white and black ways of thinking
looking down the drain for my inner child, knowing that if I go deep enough
if I ignore the darkness
Bring light to the traumas
I might win
I might live
I might find a meaning beyond the material world

I see you. The real you.
And I think it’s brave and beautiful the way you love despite all the ways life tried to destroy you

What am I but a liar?
A meaningless liar.