Now I’ll always wonder
Does he love me for me
Or does he love me for my body
Does he want to be with me
Or does he just want to sleep with me
Does he mean it when he says he loves me
Or is he telling me what I want to hear
Does he just want to see me bare
Or does he really care

You said it, he said it, she said it.
Who meant it?
You said you loved me
But said you loved her in the same day
How could that be?
Why did you do this to me?

A part of me will always wonder now
Do they love me or do they want to use me
Do they care for me or will they abuse me
Is this real ?
Will they choose me?

Her beautiful eyes mask the wonderful lies
She wonders her worth
If she’ll ever be good enough
Will she ever be loved as much as she loves?

I feel a warmth every time you look at me
I feel like I’ve found my other half

I wish it was possible to have love without any pain
I wish it was possible to have happiness without even a touch of sadness
Even in the brightest days there’s always a patch of darkness

I could feel you inside me
I felt your soul
I felt your love
Real heartbreak was losing you
I think about you every day
I think about how far along I would be
what gender you were
I think about what you would have looked like
What your name would have been

When I lost you I lost a part of myself
You changed me
I never realized it was possible to love anyone as much as I loved you
I just wish I could have met you
I wish I could have told you I loved you
I wish I could have held you
You will forever be in my heart
Rest In Peace

I can’t forget it
When I close my eyes it’s all I see
I was so young
You took advantage of me
You hurt me
Physically
Also emotionally  
You changed my outlook on love
You made me believe that’s how love was supposed to be
You drugged me
Hit me
***** me
Used me
You hurt me

I knew I loved you when I looked at you and just felt at home. I knew i loved you when all I wanted to to was be by your side. I knew I loved you when 10 hours with you felt like 10 minutes.
The way you look at me makes my heart melt. This is something I’ve never felt.

I stared at the wall for hours
Wondering what I did to make you stop loving me
Wondering why I could never be enough
Thinking about you and her
What does she have that I don’t?
I gave you every part of me
I even created a part of both of us
But you didnt want him either
Our child was unwanted by you
My heart was broken
Why can’t I ever be enough?

I’m scared you’ll hurt me
Just like he did
I’m scared to love you
What if you don’t love me back
I’m scared to let you in
What if it scares you off
I’m scared to open up
What if it makes you shut down from me
I’m scared to let you in
What if you just leave
I’m scared to show the real me
What if you don’t like what you see

I trusted you the most
Let you in
You never deserved my love
You never deserved our child
You are a player
Yet hid it under an innocent mask
You destroyed my outlook on love

You filled me with whiskey
Then started to get frisky
I told you to stop
But you wouldn’t listen
I jumped out of the car
You chased me all the way home
That night my heart turned to stone
This will forever be a demon I cannot tame

I Felt you growing inside me
Changing my outlook on life
I Remember when I first heard
I was so scared yet so happy at the same time
Despite all of the challenges I knew were coming my way I still couldn’t help but to just love you and be happy about creating my own little part of me
You were my child, you are my child
And there won’t ever come a day where I don’t think about you.
I know I have to let go of all of the pain, but the love I feel for you will always remain.
You will always be in my heart.
I love you forever