blue eyes, oh love
how many ways can I describe them?
at night, when we celebrate, they shine like the darkened sea
things hiding just below the surface, full of mystery

in the morning, though you're tired, they sparkle with delight
i look through them, transparent, and i see all your light
the light you try to hide, underneath your sneaky smile
and every time it drops, i see you for a while

and in the afternoon, after hours of hard work,
i see them soften a little, like a toddler, you give cheeky smirk
you look especially dreamy, when the sun just kisses your eyes
and when your lashes flutter, they sing me lullabies

when you're happy oh so happy!
you give a little grin!
your eyes light up and twinkle!
And here I go again.

because try as I may,
to push you from my life,
you come back to me,
with that twinkle in your eyes.

blue eyes, blue eyes,
i can't even begin
to express my love for blue eyes
oh here we go again.

Lying here at night,
Your name flashing on my screen
I can't, I won't answer.
You make me want to scream.

But it's all too confusing,
I can't say how or why,
You make me so emotional,
you're the reason that I cry.

And yet, as the light fades
from my dingy old phone,
I wonder if you realised,
I wonder if you know.

Perhaps its why you called me,
so late that very night.
It's because you know, you know!
You know it's not alright.

You know it's not okay
for me to want you like this.
Because she was my friend,
and yet I still long to kiss

those magic smirking lips.
I still long to feel our warm cheeks brush
as you sweetly laugh at me,
because I can't help but blush.

Is it okay to be friends,
with this secret that I hold?
I hope that one day you realise,
before your feet grow cold.

Breathe in, breathe out.
Am I breathing too much?
Why am I not blinking?

Breathe in, breathe out.
Maybe I'll drink some water,
No, no it just comes straight up again.

Breathe in, breathe out.
My head has lifted off my shoulders like a hot air balloon.
I think I'm blacking out.

Breathe in, breathe out.
Breathe in, breathe out.
Take another anti-depressant.

Let it all fade to grey.

Stark white
Bright, like the morning sun.
Comfortable, yet unnerving

Pitch black
Dark, like the forest at 3am
Deep, and unknowing



There was never a gray spot.



You have changed.



Dark like me.

You are 6 ft tall barely,
Already feeling broken,
haven't even had your first "real date."
Forgive me, I've misspoken.

You took her to a movie once,
You made her want to run,
Because she finally realised
I was the smoking gun.

I was one real reason,
bet you'd hate me if you knew.
Our newly ignited friendship?
Don't be kind, we'd be through.

Your words have too much impact,
You think things far too deep.
Your feelings have not subsided,
They haven't. Not in the least.

You say your mantra again
All thats happened, I'm above
If that is actually true,
Why do you still refer to her love?

Your heart is too invested,
I guess you're not for me.
For I was never going to accept
her seconds willingly.

Perhaps one far-off day,
When I'm comfortable with myself,
I'll remember these days,
And take my feelings off the shelf.

get your hand out of my heart.



didnt they tell you not to play with your food

Look out your window, darling.
There's a whole world sitting there just for you.
Can't you see it?

If only you'd turn away,
Turn away my darling!
Turn away from that book you've buried your head in!

If you'd just listen!
Hear what I say!
Do it my way, darling!

Oh my darling, why won't you look?
For heavens' sake! Don't repeat my mistake,
for I never did gaze upon the world.

I buried my head in that book,
I buried my thoughts in that music,
I buried my heart in the boy.

Years have flown by,
I have lived safely,
but I have stayed within confinement!

These four walls!
All white and dreary, my darling!
Can't you see the trees billowing outside?

Life is too short, darling!
Please, take a wander down the jostling street.
At least look out your window!

Look out your window, darling.
The sun is coming up.
Can't you see it?