Every time your eyes told me
this was going to get better,
I strangled every nerve,
pushed them out of my skin.

And every time you told me to move on,
I broke my own bones,
but it was you
who I wanted to be hurt by it,
it was you I wanted to break.

Please tell me at least once I did.

blinding light's shining
coming from your direction
lighting up my world.

when i first met you,
you had a glow like no one
i had ever seen.

the first thing i saw,
cheeks warmed by hesitation
how would i reach you?

you: a stellar shine.
my heartbeat: a fading drum.
open doors- new love.

i'd cut off my tongue
to taste moon-like shine from yours,
to float / levitate.

everyone's so dull.
you are the best of outer space
shining towards me.

i rotate around you
your vividly bright starlight
your glow in the dark.

when i first met you
i knew that the light you'd shone
would be my first sight.

your light's has begun
my new luminous, pure life.
i see it from here.

Leaves' dancing shadows on the piece of sun
missing the keen eyes
rebound on the vacant space.

The man played with shadows
weaving them into whimsy shapes
before most of them were pulps of paper
gone into the bin of night.

If not for light
would be no shadows
he was always churning in his mind
probing dark holes of moon
going into shady nooks
seeking playfully alive shadows.

The dead casts no shadows
he brooded
on the space he would leave

but he wished
they had
when he wasn't around.

She's my heart every moment
                 but thinks I'm not looking

Always looking  when she isn't.

It saddens me deeply
to stare out at the breadth
of human beauty
and know that no
fairytale dreams
wait to for the right
musical keys.

There is no soul mate
singing under
the same star strewn
sky that blooms
with planets and moons.

There is no one out there
who feels what I feel,
who seeks to think,
and be thrilled by
the knowledge that I
gathered for all.

There is no one
who would burn
with the same cosmic fury
that causes other fools
to flee in a hurry
but enraptures me
in knowledge’s ecstasy.

It is very sad to be
the smartest sub atomic particle
in a reality that eludes me
because I cannot see
beyond my proton and electrons
and all the other sub atomic morons
do not even know
that universe is just a part of an atom
in a molecule in much bigger
universe.