Hallucination

I never knew, I never knew
how painful it would be
for losing you. Outta sight,
outta mind,

Flowing from your words pouring
down on me, am I becoming your
poison?

Advert your eyes, please deny me
the temptation of this pain,
that I can't let go of.

From your words pouring
down on me, am I your own
brand of poison?

The spaces between us are
empty and to walk away from the sun
your world became cold.

Am I your poison
can this be real or
just a hallucination?

A Part of Me

It's been 365 days since I've seen the shadows dance on your face

It's been hard to deal-deal with the betrayal
It's been hard to cope-cope with this never ending pain

Look to the mirror
I see your face

I look in your eyes still bright as diamonds..
I look in your eyes still see the burning star you were meant to be

It's been 365 days since I've seen the light aura dance around your body.
It's been 8760 hours since I've felt that part of me die.

Down

Nicotine stains
Outside it rains
In my underwear

Trying my best to forget
And I don't feel so great
Stuck in slow motion
Reminding me was your unkindest notion

I never said I would die for you
I never said I would cry for you
Deep down
We all want to see how far the bullet drives
We all want to see how our soul writhes

Stuck in my head
Devoid of emotions
Anger resurfaces
From sins not yet forgotten
These feelings feel rotten

Demons dance their everlasting ritual
The feelings they give me are always mutual

I pray to the gods
I hope they hear my cries
I fall prey to the predator within

A night of everlasting pain
There's thunder in this heart
Deep down we all want to see how far the bullet drives

The Grey

Sitting here in the dark
Cigarette smoke fills my lungs
I am not gay
I am not straight
Am I living just to breathe
Or
Am I just breathing just to live
I am not a They
I am not an It
My heart is pulled into several directions
Like Nut needing her extra days
I am pained
I am lost
I am needing this mind to be silent
A mouth of a sailor
The mindset of the lost and broken
I have no idea what I am doing anymore
I am somewhere in between
This divide is strong
Jeg Er Grå

Frozen

Chaotic thoughts of
Yesterday's sins
Discerning voices telling me
.... To let you go....

Through hell I will go
Through hell I will climb

To keep you safe
To keep you mine

"Run you clever boy"

Is what you tell me
All I want is to run
Straight back to you

Frozen in time
Frozen in my fears

The bad wolf is coming
The ravens wings embrace

"Run you clever boy"

Your final words
Your final goodbye
I never wanted to let you go

My girl frozen in time.

חוֹשֶׁך

You say we are the darkness
We just harness what you fear
The light is in our hearts
The dark is our favorite form of art
We chose this way
Because of how you condemned us
You'll never face your truth
That there's a bit inside of you too
In this world of make believe
We can be the villains you can blame
In the end I can see-
I can see the darkness inside of your eyes.

Preaching To The Choir

Hark! Let the Seraphim sing
You preach of love
But your contempt of hate is stronger

Where was your god
Where was he when tragedy struck
Get off your cross
With your martyred state of mind

You go through your motions
Preaching of the heavenly gate
When in your heart its only brimstone and hate

**** your idolatry
**** your hypocrisy

Use your mind before you open your mouth
Hark! Let the Seraphim sing

I'm preaching to your choir
I'll show more than just your hate

I'll keep my fists up
I'll stand up strong
My convictions are stronger than your words

Preaching to the choir
In Jesus name, amen.