i cant seem to forget
how you looked at me
it made me feel
light and floaty
why did you hurt me
did you have to lead me on
then toss me to the side
like a piece of trash

As the evening reaches the hour of dark, and the lights inside cut out
Wed together as every star is visible
Bound to remember by the first-hand audience of two
Her gown and his pants hugging one another on the floor
As their lips may gently embrace with their ever so soft and perfect caressing
Un-married for not a sin
For the stars cross one another and they may intertwine
Sealed fate and opened gate
Together they may come,
But alone shall one leave
Forever they may part,
Or together they may start

To my first love
That I let go
Free like a dove
With the wind you flow

To my ever sweet bestfriend
I will always love you
To whenever we may end
I've done all I can do

To my old buddy
If only we'd ride
I wouldn't have to study
Or set you aside

I wouldn't have lost the creed,
but in my mind it planted a seed

It was a normal day
That went this way:

We, two besties forever
Made rules, to be broken never
Actually promises to last ever
So they'd be covered in leather

I broke the first promise
Followed me trying
To recreate her solace
And cheer her crying

She broke every promise, first
My thoughts lead me to think
She developed a thirst
Only fed by ink

All I could do
Was to stand
And stare at
What used to
Be my galaxy
Become dust
And crumble
Into nothing

I sat and thought
when I was younger
I feared whatever lurks the dark
I feared a man with no remorse
I feared men on substance and influences

I fear that child now
for I've become
everything that I feared
and in the terror
of knowing a child fears me
and will one day become
me
i am afraid

Was it your alluring eyes
Or your mellow lips
Your crisp mellifluous voice
Or your ever sweet embrace
Your addictive love
Bound with
Your comforting embrace
Or being caressed
By your short arms
That left me, hiraeth,
but it got me
And it grabbed me good
Till this very day
I'd wish for a "hey"
Though
Not the priveledge for me
For a priveledge only for he