the darkness sings and the pages sting
our hearts collide; they're shattering
we're drifting towards a new dimension,
our tongues so heavy with mutual indecision.
being hand in hand makes no difference
when we're separated by eons of distance
our spirits yearn to work this out
out bodies ache to tune logic out
but our souls are broken, and
you're not sure they can mend;
my thoughts are a token,
and i do not want this to end.
our prayers read like devotions,
our words bleeding emotion,
and though you'd never admit it
you can't fight a tear
and though i'll never forget it,
the fact is that you aren't here
it isn't physical distance that truly sets us apart,
but rather the paths of our future
and the ache in your heart
i cannot stand here, blocking your way
and you cannot afford to let your dreams slip away
maybe someday you won't be a fantasy
and i won't pour over every line

all i ask now, is for you to be kind:
if it's the last time, don't do this
like you're about to say
goodbye.

I wanna be an island
I wanna be a machine
i wanna be kind
but i don't wanna feel
i wanna be angry
but not to be bad
i wanna be your catharsis
to lift the weight from your head
i wanna be a machine
a machinegun
and spit bullets from my lung
i wanna be young and clever
like bugs bunny
i wanna live forever
i want life to be unreal
i want death to go away
i want fear to be the last thing to ever be felt
or get said
I want to be a wave
in the sea of your soul
I wanna burn out
but keep you warm like coal
I wanna be trash
thrown away, with no use
i wanna fall deep
cause i wanna cut loose
I wanna be fog
to keep myself hid
I wanna be a shape
with no part that could fit
I wanna be the sun
to shine and to burn
I wanna be your master
cause i want you to learn
i wanna be a tower
with a treasure inside
I wanna be a maze
cause you never shall find
I wanna be the ash
from the past that i burned
I wanna be the storm
that leaves no stone unturned
I wanna be me
but i would like you
to stay you
I wanna be a lie
yet i want to stay true

It feels like it's been seven years.
almost like my body has been replaced
I'm still in the same body though
just with a different face
full of different cells
and my blood?
that's different, too.
It's no wonder that my dreams are so different.
that my wants and needs are so...
well... let's just call them
not like me.
and that's okay.
maybe to some it isn't.
but to me?
well, I guess they'll just have to
suffice for
now.

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