In the maze of sleeplessness,
  My soul searches for rest.
    I find no sign of escape
    Locked in a dreamless haze
  Peace forgotten,
Only stress.

Lying in the Dark
  My light dims inside me
   Truth fades to murky water
   I stumble in the night
  Shadows envelop
My heart grows cold

Progress happens,
  Moment by Moment,
    Decision by decision.
      Invisible in those moments,
    Progress chuckles at us.
  If only we could see ,
Oh how easy it would be.

Tired,
  yet longing,
   for something unknown,
    What treasure,
     Am I seeking?
    Will I ever find it?
   If I find it,
  Will it fill,
This hole in my soul?

What are these feelings swirling in my heart,
When will they stop,
When did they start.

My heart wants to trust,
But all I know is lust.

To know and be know,
But all I know is the shadows.

Hiding behind my walls of solitude,
Safe in the prison I built around me.

Now free,
I am lost.

A heart beating in an open chest,
Vulnerable,
Raw.

The lifeblood of my soul exposed,
Who's hands will volunteer,
to stitch closed my chest with the thread of their love,
Or will my heart dry in the open air of isolation.

Like an apple in the sun,
Will my confidence evaporate under the glare of rejection,
Or will I find a life to live,
to share,
to give.

Thursday, August 30, 2018
11:13 AM

I dont know you,
I dont know your smile,
Your laugh,
Or your pain.

What struggles and trials,
That have brought you to me,
Reading my poem,
Hearing my heart.

My heart that breaks for your pain,
And cries for your wounds.

I dont know you,
But I wish I could stand
Between the wall of guilt and shame,
And the shivering,
Quivering outline of your heart.

I wish I had the words to heal you,
I won't pretend I do.

Just know that you're not worthless,
You're worth something to me.

A lie must be spoken,
For the spell to be broken,

While trapped deep inside,
When it seems all hope has died,
Is a seed waiting silently,
Waiting for sunlight to come.

One day the sun will rise,
Will you let the lie win,
Or to its surprise,
Will you water the seed deep within?