Your head pounds
In sync with
Your heartbeat
The solitude surrounds
You like
A glove
Waves are crashing
Into your soul
Your left
With
No sight
The silence is so
Loud
The sun has
Left
Only darkness remains
There you stand
Burned
Your turning into
Dust
The wind
Carries you in
A relentless spiral
With no
Destination
You remain lost
With no
Memory of life
©onwonarenearps

A prideful man would chase his own *** before he would chase yours
No matter the cost, his lust for false righteousness exceeds the sum of innocence which surrounds him
It dissolves time and love and stores it deep into the space only he knows
Casting out any attempt of making things right, even as a child calls him daddy, it's not enough

It's
Not
Enough

The pain he puts forth is his fuel to spread hate fullness in innocence
Having no regard of the destruction he's caused in the eyes of the one's who loved him
Like broken glass, the aftermath is devastating
The tears have summoned a raging flood God can't stop
A prideful man will stand tall during it all and claim innocence
While the one's who loved him are caught and swept away

"As a young lost little girl
Didn't look like nobody
Difference of skin color
Different beliefs
Wished for a future to the Sky's
Limit
But was told I wasn't good
Enough
Wasn't pretty enough
Hair is to dark
My race is *****
In an environment of pales
I never had a chance
Was always portrayed in a funny
Way
Nobody spoke to me, I literally wasn't
There
Invisible as the black sheep
In an all white field
Never knew what self esteem
Was, never heard things like
Good job or I'm proud of you
The mud below my bare feet
Is where my place was
Never remember holding
My head up, I was alone
Nobody to fight for
Me
Smoke filled homes almost
Took my life before i even
Had a chance to grow
Up
Everything was always hazy
I never knew what was to come
Or if I would see another day
Falling into a deep dark place
That has took
Me down in my
Adult days
Watching every minute on
The clock roll
By
Looking at movies over
And over praying for some
Rest
But it rarely comes
Its become a stranger
My best friend
Consuming my way of
Life
Living is like being in
Prision
Same walls every day
My world is minute,
Microscopic you might
Say
I'm falling fast
Pain has caught me now
Stabbing me, trapping me
Holding me hostage
But the price is to high
For freedom
Walking has become a
Luxury
Eating is like a
Sin
My room has become my
Home
All the other rooms have
Disapeared
To the right I allow
Myself to see a small
Piece of light
Sometimes i feel like I've already
Walked into the
Light"

Now that you sleep with wings
my tears fall remembering...

your voice returns from the past
and there you are again...

I say goodbye with a heavy heart
and days ahead of me, to march
with your memory...

i say farewell... and bless you
as you float above the world
less gone...

Laughing mockingly at
Dead leaves
As the thunder
Rolls in
Good has been lost
And evil
Prevails
In stone hearts
The unkind leads
All known things into
Hell
Darkness greets the
Ignorance
Behind comatose
Eyes
And the mind is
Victorious
The world is
In mourning
As hope is lost
The end of the world
Never happens
Naturally
It ends prematurely
At greeds
Hands

The surrender of
What can't be
Seen
Is at your
Fingertips
It's spineless
Body crawls into
All you are
Lurking at the
Places
Hidden
In your blank
Stare
Eyes of a
Haunted
Hallway
Your alone but always
Accompanied by
Shadows along
The walls
Which you
Frequent
During long
Nights
The fools who approach
Hoping for something
Cheap
Catch the
queens
Scolding
Tongue
Wearing the witch
Hat
Proudly
Never looking back
To the pain
That transformed
You
Fast and furious
Hands
Saved your
Life

Eyes as bright as the
Suns
Rays
The voice of an
Angel
Pure as spring water
Her spirit carried
For miles
She always seen the
Good in everything
Even in trying
Times
Her laughter made
Everything
Ok
She was wise and had
Much to teach
Always guiding everyone
In God's path
She loved her family
With everything she
Had
And always stood by
Them
No matter what
She truly was a little
Piece of heaven
On earth
The lord has now
Called her
Home
And she wants us
Not to weep
But to celebrate her
Memory as she was
On earth
It's hard to say
Goodbye
But we must let
Her go to
Rest in peace
With the
Lord

Gazing into the night sky
Mourning the death
Of a dear friend
Feeling empty at
Best
I can hear her voice of
Our last encounter
It was of an Angel
Her smile could brighten
The darkest
Of
Days
Her spirit was pure
And her intentions
Meant well
Her last few months
Were harsh
But even still
She persevered
And kept going
Death never seems to
Wait
But is always on
Time
Her body was tired
And I know she was
Ready to be with
The lord
As much as everyone who loves
Her wishes she was
Still here
We all know she is in
A better place
With no more
Pain and
Suffering
Words cant describe how much you will
Be missed
And you will live on
In all our hearts

Staring into an empty space filled
With wonder
That reaches for the
Moon
With an absent
Ground
Laughing at depressions
Dismay of shattered
Dreams doomed
By suicidal
Thoughts
And
Sleepless nights
Loving the one's who
Abandoned
Your exsistance
Each exhausting day
Is harder to get through
Then the one before
Yet you do it all over
Again
Because who else
Will
Giving credit to your
Biological makers
Who raised your
Downfall
And encouraged your
Feelings of inadequacy
Missing pieces of a broken
Home are all you
Have
Left
To carry to your
Grave
Somehow missing the
Point of why
Your
Were
Here

Lighting strikes back at
The thunders angry
Tantrum
The great battle of
All that lives in
The
Sky
Clashing of many
Personality traits proves
Hell on earth now and
Then
Chaos runs with the
North winds
That blow in monstrous
Fronts mother earth
Herself can't contain
Something kronos conjured
From a blackened
Heart
Where love was never left
And hatred is your best
Friend
An unlikely force unleashed
In the great sea
Parts
Ways onto dry land
Staring with weary
Eyes
Yielding for
Battle
On the front lines
With nothing left to
Give
And short of a
Reason
Why
You surrender
To the unknown
Which possess
You
To act with such
Haste
And bitterness

Perhaps lifes pleasures
Seek darkness beneath goodness
Slithering into the forbidden
Fruits
Your soul harbors
Lustful fantasies replaying
During rebellious years when life
Meant something
To a younger image of
A fearless
You
Living without limits, soaring
Head on into the fire
And
Becoming one with the
Flames
Tempting danger in the face
With guns drawn
Never taking 3 steps back
Those were the days when fate
Still meant something in my heart
And mornings were easy
To face
Limitless was the thought of
The day
And anything was possible
Youth is so innocent, and invincible
To a cruel, unforgivable world
But you don't know anything about
That
You live as if the world is a
Silver platter in which you
Stand upon
Handed anything you desire
And every wish is
Granted

Scorned words broken
On your floor of
Glass
Cutting like a machete
In an overgrown
Rainforest
As the rain trickles
Off my
Back
A lost soul
Roaming the world
Aimlessly, lacking
Greatness, never instilled
Riddled with
Wonder of
What a father
Is
Only left with what
He
Isn't
Lost the game
Of love
But won
Solitude
In it's
Realist form
Living the reality
Of
A cruel world
With a heavy
Chip
A solider
Trained most
Inhumane
Having left with
No choice
Surviving is
Life's game
You live or
You die
Bleakness in sight
Of nowhere
In particular
Just knowing
Your always
Somewhere
Short
Of a dream

On the cusp of
Left and
Broken
A young girl
Who's fate
Was sealed
Before
Birth
By a
Father who
Deemed
Her
Worthless
She had her
Love to
Give
But it had
No
Worth
To a man
With priorities
To another
Woman's
Children
And a
Half empty
Beer can
There are no
Pictures or
Father/daughter
Dances
Just painful
Memories of
His drug
Deals between
My friends
Father
Shamed and robbed
My head hung
Low
As my tears
Fell
Fast
Left on the
Door step of
An abusive
Mother
There was no where
To turn
Each day
Was ruthless
And
Never ending
For me
While my
Father managed
To cop a high
To sail
Through
In the end
I
Payed the
Ultimate
Price
Abandoned and
Casted into
The shadows
Of two
People
Who never
Gave me a
Choice to be
Here

Echos of screaming entities
Illuminating
Inside
memories
That swirl inside
My shattered
Mind
Every wall that surrounds
Me slowly closes
In until it
Becomes
One with
Me
Complete disconnect of
All that is
Real
And reality
Has
Transformed
Into
Insanity
My soul bellows
Out into
The
Hazy
Fog
That ive
Become
Lost in an unbreakable
Maze
Thats wishes to
Consume
Me
My body
Lies a
Mangled
Mess
To the
Dismay of
Angels
A smile upon a
Charity
Case
That doesn't smile
Back
Rusty chains ******
My wrists
As the dark lord
Drags me
Into
Hell

Staring through a broken window
Dreaming about
A sheltered
World
That hasn't
Been
Discovered
Untouched, having no
History
To teach
Or stories to
Tell
No life exists
No sounds to be
Heard
Nothing to
Feel
The air is still
And heavy
Tree's are bare
And unworthy of
Beauty
The ground hardened
Lacking a sweet summer
Rain
Proving years of neglect
For a delicate
Foot
Unloved and well forgotten
Lies the place
With no
Name

I hear the echos of
A snide
Tongue
While you
Say
I love
You
The worst times
Reside in
Your last
Words
The air acts as
A knife
That cuts with
Each movement
I
Take
A darkened tone
Fills the space
I stand
That the light
Never
Touches
A place where
Right isn't
Practiced
Enough
And wrong is
Always
Right there
Emotions grow weary
With each
Failing
And I can go
No
More
Im motionless
A victom of
A
Similiar past
That haunts
My every
Movement
Insanity grasps my
Reluctant
Defeat
Of something
That seems like a
Dream
Except my eyes
Are open
And im very
Much
Alive

The smell of Jasmine lingers as he strums
His
Guitar
Notes fall like rose petals softly to
The floor
Our love grows wild and blooms
Into a Mosaic of vibrant
Colours
The world slows down a little as I look
Into your eyes
I hear everything as you
Look back at
Me
Raising your hand, you softly
Brush my cheek
Which ignites my flame
My soul burns like a wild
Fire
Out of control
Traveling in a Eastern wind
Straight to your heart
Your soul catches
Me
In the
Moment
And we unite as
One
In flight wing to wing we
Race, swirling up above
  Soaring into
The
Blue Wild Yonder

Silk sheets brush my cheek
The kiss on my lips
Burns with
Passion
The light in his eyes
Carries me across the deepest ocean
In the distance fields are
Burning
The wind howl's
Into an inferno as we make love
I hear the alarms sound
But the fire still burns inside
Us
My everything sings to you, I breathe
For you, every step I take
Is in sequence to your heart beating
We write beautiful words together, and compose
How beautiful the birds sound as they
Sing
How the sun bestows its beauty as it sets in the Western sky
As we sit hand in hand at night and stare up
At the sky the stars tell a story
About how they got there
The ghostly wind blows through silent tree's
As we walk by
The air adores us as we say nothing
At
All
Saying everything
At
Once
Bliss takes us away into infinite galaxies
Of endless
Possibilities
While we soar among the stars

As the wind carelessly blows through my dark black hair
The sun plays sweet melodies to
Me
Echos of love from my souls
Mate
He sings for me into eternity, the one who
Captured his heart
She holds it tightly, blossoming like a black
Rose as he plays
In that moment there are no
Thorns
Nothing that cuts the flesh tones
Of my
Dismay
Only love, it spreads thick and swallows me
Whole
Capturing the essence of my smile
I sit with a glow and a halo upon my head
Basking in my throne
As the rays hit me, im alive
Deeply feeling what they tell
Me
The message within tells the tale of the
Eternal
Flame
That burns for only me
A language only I speak, he speaks to me
No words even
Said
Isn't that lovely?...
Launched into a bliss where the birds sing
And the forest dances
In the distance the mountains have blessed
Me
Welcoming me to tread through the hills and trails they hide
I shall dare to go, and have the time of my
Life
As he plays...
I can go anywhere

Outside of strenuous forces
Lies the
Lone rose
Cities vibrant with heavens
Lights
And music
Of
Gods
Captivating the essence of
Home
Everythings alive
The tree's dance, the air sings
The ground feels your
Comfort
The sweet sun serenades you with
Its magic
As will the
Moon and his company
After hours

Side by side, walking along Fate's path
Your hand in mine...
Love's masquerade, the
Heavens in which
We
Stand
Epiphanies surfaced in times of
Trials and
Sombersome
Events that kept love
Away
The stars I see in your
Eyes sing to the
World in mine
That's filled when your
Arms are around
Me
My body responds to your breathe
Upon my chest,
Scents of masculinity
Roam among
My
Thighs
I feel your thoughts on my
Body, your dreams and desires
Engulf me into
Your world
Ignited into flames we both
Swell into the open air
At each others side
We fly in perfect rhythm to heavens song
The angel's hum
Celtic harmonies
As we
Dance the dance of
Gods
The world doesn't exist when
We're together
It is just us
Me
And
You
Swirling in the treetops while
The rest fades
Away

In the bitter depths of night
Nothing's right and
Everything's wrong
Haunted by the eerie silence
That speaks so
Loudly
Blindsided by unseen ghosts
Gutting your naked thoughts
Exposing your inner
Most
Fears
The room spins round and round
And your eyes swell
Delirium sets in, you either laugh
Or cry
But either way nothings
Ok

The scent of disappointment lingers
In the
Air
From our last encounter
Echoes of disgruntled voices pierce
The dark inside of
Me
The days when we climaxed were
Heaven on
Earth
But that didn't come along
Often
We drifted miles apart
Barely remembing who we were
And what we could have
Been
Even those days are now
Gone
Rusted memories slowly fading into
The past
While we still break down in
The present
Together was impossible
You can't love when love isn't
Wanted
Dreams are all you have left, a place you
Stay often
Where the sun still shines
And the stars come out to greet
You

When the dreams are over, the pain
Arrives
It wears out its welcome onto two deserving
People
Where hell is your
Heaven
And heaven doesn't
Exsist
Coinciding somehow, but meer entities sharing
A place called
Home
Even the lights have become dim
As to set the somber
Mood
Of the hurt that never ends
You feel yourself slip away a little
More each day
But you still
Dream
Of how it could've been

Selfishness is such a root evil
It offers no
Security
Only undeserved punishment
Many nights lying in bed
Crying yourself to
Sleep
While the other sits high
On a 14 carrot gold
Thrown
Tossing bread crumbs your
Way with
Haste
Your life such a dreadful
Mess
Left confused and searching for some
Abandoned truth
There is no such thing
Anymore
Pouring your heart into a glass
Already filled
With rage
Just in time for
Your
Arrival
Living a shallow exsistance
Never able to please
The
Piper
Only to suffer more relentless
Hell bent
Crucifixion
At the hand of the one
Who's
Perfect
The sun doesn't exist
In hell
Only deep pitted flames to cast
Pain in the greatest
Glory
Of the one
Who loved with no
Convictions
Erasing laughter and
Casting
Tears
Upon the queen you
Chose
Lacing the air with nails that pierce the
Lucky
Recipient
And the blood shall
Pour
Onto the shallow
Grave you call
Home

Darkness is my most familiar place
Knowing my every
Move
Following my thoughts
Humming my favorite
Song
Darkness is my light of day
And my bleakest sunrise
Leading me through hollow places
Ive left
And
Gone
Holding my hand into the raging
Fire
To the end of
Tears that burn my skin
Never letting go
Thick and thin
Sickness and health
Caressing my anger
Stroking my rage into
War
Darkness is my ride or die
Into the unknown places of my soul
Where the pain hides and disguises
So
Well
The silence that screams desperately
Wanting to be
Seen
The will that never fails
The place that wasn't loved enough
Darkness fills that
The want that wants back
Fake touches of the truth
Everything that got away or didnt stay
Darkness is my
Companion

So many fallen before you never looking
Back
Keep it moving 
A piece of you was lost, a love was broken
Keep it moving
Never shed a tear
A life partner, a first love tragically estranged, your mind wanders where would we be today
Keep it moving
Never breaking down
The loneliness resides inside, periodically making an entrance
You feel faint and sick inside
Keep it moving
You stand up taller and smile, your best disguise
It looks good on you
The days you look your best and
Keep it moving
Are the very days your heart breaks the most, but you must
*Keep it moving

Much like roots of a tree sprout
love molds into what it desires, clinching the one
it desperatley seeks
everything that makes it
whole
one who can finish sentences before they are spoke
and understand unspoken words
never blind to pain nor needs
magic hands that soothe the wildest fires within a
troubled
soul
loving no matter how bad the storm is, or how you both shall
deteriorate
never venturing from one another, or falling into an empty
temptation
knowing the cost of such foolshness
love knows no boundaries, it shines in the darkest of days
and grows in the worst of storms

Sleepless nights take me away
As the blood pours
And my skin
Dries
Im left ******
Dry
Somwhere between
Near and
Far
Come take me away to my distant
Fears
And leave me disturbed and crazed
Darkness hovers where eyes are peeled open
And zombies are my
Friends
Staggering in rhythmic choreographed dances
That werewolves sing to
Offering a hand so we can dance the
Night
Away

Seeds of a hollow tree lying beneath
Your feet
Sprouting at your heels

Lost.
Without.
You.

Wandering aimlessly amidst
Sunken flowers
Wilted
And
Dry
Dead leaves stirring in a
Turbulent
Breeze, breaking Plexiglas
Windows
Loud silence piercing
Deaf ears
Blind eyes searching a thousand seas
For you
Pure emptiness at the bottom of an ocean
Quick sand devouring what's left
Of you
Forever in a time warp
Of nothing
That
Belongs

I can be there, where you are
Where the right things
Are
Wrong
Where the silence lasts
To
Long
Where the light
Is
Dark
How you always miss
Your
Mark

I can be there
Always cattering to my ego
Refusing to
Let
Go
Harboring anger, keeping my loved one's
In
Danger
Giving all my attention to
A
Stranger
Only thinking of myself, and leaving you
By
Yourself
I can be there, where you are
Only doing me, and leaving
You
Be
Keeping you at bay, while
I
Stray
Keeping everything on the down low
And watch you
Drown
Below
I can be there
Sitting tall and proud, on cloud nine
Not caring if
Your mine
Living in righteousness and fame
Kmowing you will always lose at
My
Game
I can be there, where you are
Smug and crude
Always acting
Rude
Callous and cold
And strike you down when your
Fed up
And
Bold
Walk out like I don't care
And don't give a **** the pain you have
To bare

I can be there, where you are

In the great distance I hear
The cries of
A midnight
Train
Passing through a
No name
Town
The dark hovering tree's guard
The lands
Secrets
Of those that
Once
Ruled
Horses hoove prints forever carved in
The concrete
Mud
Below
The cries of death echo in somber tones
On the
Hollow
Plains
Old wagon wheels scattered about
Along the lonesome
Trails
There is a chill in the valley where many said their  last words
Forever trapped in a
Stand
Off
Carrying big irons to warn off the riding rebels
That dare
Trespass
The doors to the saloon ragged and rotten
But you can still hear the music
Wailing and the screams of the
Waitresses as the
Men
Flirted And
Teased
Just outside a tumbleweed blows by
Not a sound to be heard
Its midnight
In the distance I hear
The cries of
A
Midnight
Train

When the butterflies have all flown away
And your
Hearts
At
Bay
The scent that drove you wild
Has grown
Muffled
And
Mild
When the intimacy never comes around
Things are
Flying
South
Bound
The days turn to weeks since you've spoken
Its obvious
Things
Are
Broken
When complements become rare
The bond
Becomes
Bare
When strangers care more about you
It's time
To
Say
Goodbye
Boo

Life's fleeding in dying rose petals
Fading into brownish
Flakes
Falling one by one onto
The cold
Ground
Swept away by the creeping wind
Lurking in
Dark
Shadows
A quarter freed
But three quarters
Captured

Mistakes are easy and usually one-sided
Selfish acts
Dominantly casted upon another who is
Blinded by what they
Believe in
Or whom.
Defiant behavior resumes in their mind
Knowing the path is righteous
And not backing
Down
Level headed becomes only true for the
One *******
Up
And for the one who is struck
Well, they become the
Pawn
The root of all to be demonized for proper behavior
Love doesn't win
It
Loses
You fall like a piano being lifted outside
An apartment
Window
As it lies on the ground
In disbelief
No one takes
Blame
But who cares
Right
The rope was old

Pieces of me fade away as the memories pass by

Me...
Without a life jacket
I sink into the darkness night beholds
My fate is carved in stone with blood I shed in the days I loved
When I roamed the streets so life could continue
Sleepless nights I braved with eyes wide shut driven by a dream
Countless hours burning the clock I stared at while wasting away in the depths of second rate
Oblivious to my surroundings because love is blind
The pain was symbolic to success because in my world no pain, no gain
My vulnerability severed the cord in which I breathed
Life had ceased because
Love
Is
Blind